https://youtube/watch?v=PRAdwax72o0 loosing off track I just cant feel the time passed by lately. Gone to sleep at 4am yesterday because I had been sticking with my stuff on the computer and woke up at 9 this morning because I dont want mom to grumble against me each time I wake up late and not have breakfast ._. Brushing upon with the new jobs til the early pm after lunch , then do some random sketch since I just surpassed the deadline too soon. And then boom, 7pm, how the hell I just cant feel it. Then dinner again. and its 8pm so I lost the mood for keeping working or even for going out for something tonight. I may consider things are normal to me cuz if I just stay up through the night again then I still have at least 8 hours in a...day maybe. But at this time, just feel like people dont live like this ... then, what am I gonna do before I go to sleep now because I feel like dont know how many hours left before I will go to sleep. Things are going with no schedule... At least the only schedule is getting up at 9, have breakfast and do the freelance jobs... And mom keeps telling me to get a fulltime job soon and cant stop complaining that Im wasting my youth for repeating the process everyday. Just wonder if I get a fulltime job will it be different? And actually I pretty enjoy my life like this ... wasted youth !! or just enjoying the youth my way ... but not for long. I was always like that, there are times in a year I dont wanna meet anyone or talk to anyone .__. Actually I applied for a few places which Im interesting and had a meeting with those people already but they keep telling me be patient until they call me for work, understanding the situation for this time is near the year end summary. Anyway I also hope that I get to work at any of those company soon since I declined some good places this year due to the fact that I just dont want to go to work ._. shame on me. Karma!!! The plan for next year when go to work full time is working like hell with all ambition, then save the ambition at home and do nothing relating to art. And meet more people... I met some great ones this year and did learn tons from them. Meeting awesome people makes you realize how stupid you have been before...meeting them. xD and some bad guys also xD well, writing things like this is so goooooood. and just feel like there are people reading this .___. so cant write out the ultimate secret here ok.... lets play video games haha
Posted on: Wed, 17 Dec 2014 14:07:12 +0000