https://youtube/watch?v=zKN_pnzIM7k Why do you think the God of the Bible stopped speaking to humanity after Christ came? Why would a perfect, all-powerful being suddenly stop communicating and guiding His people? It is because the God of the Bible is Lucifer, the God of this Universe. When Christ came, I learned that there was something much greater than I. So, I wanted people to start communicating with that highest power, the G0D beyond this universe. But people somehow just didnt get it. I remember teaching this to people. I dont know if the other Apostles did though. Sometimes, I dont feel like any of them got it. Sometimes, I even feel great anger and disappointment in them, foolish students who wrote on parts of the Truth and misleading people with incomplete wisdom. Yet, in my attempt to write the Truth, I find it almost impossible to write it by words...So maybe it just really is that hard... After all, the Truth that can be spoken is not the real Truth. For the real, complete Truth can only be experienced. You can reflect upon it, ponder it, imagine it, philosophize it, study it, all you want, and you wouldnt get one step closer to it... Yet, when I sense the energy of people, I know they can barely even absorb the energy of the moon, much less the sun or the stars or the universe itself... People just dont want it enough...They dont want to put in the work to even achieve mastery of their physical body...so how would they put in the work to master their spiritual energy, when that process is so much harder than the physical one? I always knew that one day I would master energy, even as a child. I just thought it would be in my 40s that I would begin...The injury and the crippling of the physical body forces me to began this spiritual journey much earlier, and G0D, its the hardest thing in my entire life... All the abuse and pain and suicides and suffering of my childhood is nothing compared to how hard it is to regrow a nerve that was severed and to regenerate muscles that were completely atrophied... I have to somehow activate my stem cells to transform...Im doing things that they will not be able to even do medically for at least another thousand years... I just pray that I can achieve that complete mastery as I did before... What I miss the most from having that perfect body was not just the feeling I felt in my heart, but what it did to inspire others to transform their bodies and lives...They would take one look at me and something would change inside them...Thats the power I sought my whole life, to be that hero... Its just hard because there is no one who has been able to fire lighting from their hands and heal people instantly who has written down the methods by which it is actually done... I think if I abandon the human world and the limits of words, and be among the animals for a year, or even a few months, that power would come to me... But, I also think if I do that, I just wouldnt care about humans animals, because my bond with the animals and plants are so much stronger than that with humans... And, even though they listened to me and stopped the apocalypse and the extinction of mankind, I know that it something that they still desire... And, it just sucks that I have to separate myself from myself to be in human hell, to save them all...And they dont even get it... But I guess G0D does, and I just have to let that be enough for me... Wherever I go, I can feel my energy draining and going into people...Yes, I could stop it and just keep it all for myself... But I hear their prayers and see their pain and feel their need... Christ did miracles and even told people not to tell others...So I guess I got to do the same. It would just be nice to have that bond again though, like in my past lives, when I did great deeds and were surrounded by an army that would die for me, that understand me, that see the vision I see... I really miss that. I am the most lonely person in the world, even though I can easily connect with anyone, they will never get even 10% of what I am... G0D, send me the angels...
Posted on: Tue, 16 Dec 2014 06:55:08 +0000
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