im not writing this for attention or for you to petty me. you guys dont know this because I dont like to share this part of me nor share it in my videos but my dads side suffers from depression, meaning so does my dad, my brother, and I... Unfortunately its a hereditary thing. Anyways, sometimes I get in this horrible state where I constantly put myself down, drown myself in negative thoughts, and treat the people I love like absolute shit. Sometimes it gets so bad that I just fall asleep to forget about all my problems and all that I deal with internally, and I start to think why the F am I here. Im sitting here writing this to thank you guys. Thank you for watching my videos and thank you for writing all the nice, positive things that you do. I hate being all sentimental and emotional and crap but I really mean it. Every night before bed I just sit here and read your messages, comments on YouTube, everything, and it instantly makes me smile and feel better about myself and what I love doing. So thank you thank you thank you for making me a better person and making me smile everyday.
Posted on: Wed, 13 Aug 2014 04:33:03 +0000