#inbox Am fem 35 years from P.e@ Tinara. About a month ago now, my girlfriend (Butch, 38, from P.e@Zakhele) of 8 months left me :( for another girl (42 from P.e @ Motherwell). first six months it was great, and I was so happy.she told me she had feelings for her straight best friend. I accepted that, said I was willing to work through it etc. Then along came my birthday and she agreed to come. Well she did come to my birthday When she arrived, she barely talked to me, wouldnt even hug me, and slept facing the wall while I bawled my eyes out all night. Then in the morning, her boss (the straight best friend she likes) sent her a text asking if she could return to work. My birthday party was planned for that night, but she agreed to go back. I was a little bit speechless, and understandably sad, and she finally gave me a cuddle and said sorry etc. Then she left, and I had a terrible night wondering what was happening. The night after that, I sent her a very long Text (probably two pages) explaining my feelings, completely pouring my heart out to her. I woke up in the morning to a txt, saying she was leaving me because I loved her too much and it wasnt fair for me, because she also had feelings for someone else. She also said that she wanted to be friends with me. So that is an overview of what happened... Basically, I have been a complete mess for the last month, it has seriously affected me and my friends have been very worried about me, to the point where they took me to book a doctors appointment (this will be next week for me). A couple of weeks ago my parents split up, and one of her friends must have heard about it because she txted me to say she was sorry to hear it etc. I have since re-added her as a friend on facebook (small step I know) to find her in a relationship with the girl she had feelings for, which was also incredibly hard to me to handle. But Im trying to deal with it, I know she has moved on and the way she had been treating me wasnt right anyway, unfortunately its still really hard for me to cope. So basically what Im asking is, do I persevere and try to be friends with her? I think I want to, but when I cant even look at her picture without having a panic attack it feels like a bit of an uphill battle. Or should I just leave it, and never speak with her again? Im leaning towards the idea that it is going to get better in time, and I should just wait and see what happens. Now I have spilled my guts out to the whole group , I actually feel a little better, sorry if that is a tonne of stuff to read. I think my real reason for joining this Group is to help myself move on from this but its hard :( still lonely
Posted on: Fri, 15 Aug 2014 08:16:51 +0000
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