#insert 34# Maaaaaaaa!maaa! *screaming in pain*noooooooo! Besele ndiguqe ngama dolo ndimshukumisa ephumfumla kancinci:( no he cant take her away from me too ! No I need my mum :( :( xazinje izinto suicide is the only way out.I try to make my life a better life but things alwys fall apart :( I was starting to accept my fathers death! I was even starting to forgive the people who rapped me ! I pray everynight uba uthixo makahlambe intliziyo yam :( ndaxakeka ba mna kulomhlaba noba ndaziswa ngelitshwa :( nothing of mine goes right :( life is unfair :(. Me. : sino kwenzeke ntoni? Her : undibuzile mna sisi ba ndiphuphe ntoni ndamxelela ba ndiphuphe ubhuti endityisa into yokchama kwakhe ndamxelela ba kwenzeka ntoni bese yena umama wathi mandihambe ndiyolala. Ndasitsho isikhalo! :( no sino I parents zakhe andikadibani nazo kuze kungathiwa ndibe umtwana yimini yosine lena noba nabo bancamile! I cried ukubone xakubhujiwe dlela le makhala ngayo oo mama?kwaye kwafika oomakhelwane umama wasiwa esibhedlela ndithandazani phofu ngeloxesha. Thixo ndicela undigcine undomelelise ndingaze ndikudele nange mini enye.noba izinto zingandehlela zilandelana xakuvume wena thixo ndiyazi awundilahlekisi.thixo uba yintando yakho loh mayenzeke bawo!wena umkhulu thixo esimdumisayo!ndigcine bawo!cela bawo ugcine isizwe sakho She was admitted at the hospital :( ndazxelela ba andizubuyela endlini without her! :( no I cant survive without her..ndikula waiting room yasesbhedlela kwafika uBhuti siya kunye namanye amadoda amabini. Him : *he came to me and hugged me I just cried on his chest and he held me tight*sshh. Me : *crying* him : Kuzodlula sisi thula sisi Me. : I cant do it anymore! I hate this life!nobomi buyandicapukhela.:( I want to rest too!ndikhathele malume!malume this is too much for me :( :( yoooh malume :( life is unfair on me :( bhuti kuzobaryt xandihamba nam kulomhlaba. Him : hay sisi akukho njalo ntombi nqina . UThixo esimdumisayo nguThixo wemimangaliso! Ngu thixo wesizwe sonke ! Sidumisa uthixo woThando ! Uthixo ukuhambisa ekunzimeni efuna ukwazi ba ukholelwa nkangakanani kuye ba angakukhupha kwinto akufaka kuyo.ntombam kuyo yonke into eyenzeka emhlabeni yazi sisi ba uThixo uvumile wathi makubenjalo then makubenjalo mtanam! Ndiyakthanda mna sisi kakhulu andinofunwa ukulahlekelwa nguwe.Masiqhubeke simdumise thixo. Me : Malume ndiyakholelwa kuThixo :(. Omnye utata owaye ehleli emvakwethu : uxolo ntombama andikwazanga ukuzibamba ntombam intombam endala ndandimkhupha ndimfaka kuzo zonke ezibhedlela kwancama oh Gqirha.ngoba sinkonza uthixo wemi mangaliso.a miracle happend to her waphila umtwana wam kwethuka o Gqirha ababe lahle ithemba kuye.Ntombam ungathi uthixo angabenza ubomi bakho kubeyimpumelelo akwenze ba ungalilahli ithemba nakwintoni nah.u are a strong women and God will make you stronger.sometimes I faith ibalulekile.have faith ba yonke izobaryt! Yiba ne faith ba nguThixo owenza ezinto kwaye uzenza uba efuna ukusa ekukhanyeni.ubomi bunzima ntombam kodwa mna ndifuna ukuthi nanxakiphi na odlula kuyo ungaboze umlahle u Thixo.asiyonto ngaphandle kwakhe..life is unfair But HAYI you cant give up just cause of that.you a bright student who has a bright future aside her.just be strong not only for you but for your God and mother as well. :( :( :( :( :( Everything they said was true Bandenze nda ne faith ku thixo endimdumisayo kula moment zonke ingxaki zam besele ndizibeke kuye.yazi impilo sometime doesnt go the way we plan it. Sometimes things dont work out as we want. Sometimes people let us down. Sometimes our hopes, dreams and expectations crash to the ground! We go through different situations singalindelanga !Ndithetha nge Rape MNA!!! I Depression! Death ! Betrayal ! Being disowned by your family yewena kuzo zonke ezizinto ungaboze ulilahle ithemba ku Thixo esimdumisayo.ndithetha njengomtu owadlula ebunzimeni kodwa kuyo yonke lonto nange mini eyi one azange ndayeka ukukholelwa ku Thixo wam.if I can wena uzohlulwa yintoni?Have faith in your God .never question his things .Remember impilo ayikho sezandleni zethu but in his hands. Bendisekwezo gcingo ke ndikholelwa ba umama uzophila xakufanele.I was starting to accept the situation as it..besisahleli kwi waiting room we still havent anything from the doctors.bekusendim no malume kunye nabantu ahamba nabo.my head was on my lap briefly thinking about all the things that I went through in life!I heard someone pat my shoulder I looked @ who it was. Me : *i just looked @ her* nomzabo : ndivilele sisi ngento yenzekileyo.uxolo phila sisi. Me. : * mxm*i wanted to say that but ndazibamba.ndathula ndamjonga. Her : phila ntombam!phila nana kaloku ntombam kuthiwa ivili liyajikeleza into oyenza emtwini nawe ngenyemini izakwenziwa nkuwe...akuthetha mna mtana kdwa kuthetha iziphumo... Really????????yiyona support angandibonisa yona lena?yoh! Me : oh. Her : yima mtanam andilwi since ummamakho esweleka izinto bezibhaliswe kuye ngu tata zizothini kengoku? Uxolo maarn my babe ndikhona mna vah.you have me and mna ndizokugada financially.umcele mamakho abhalise mna.ndiyakuthanda mtwana wam vah... :( :( life utheni unzima kangaka kanty wena? Me : please leave!!!!NOW!! Her : okay sisi ndizohhamba *she left* Andibonanga uba I doctor ufike nin ndithe xandijonga wabe umalume ethetha naye!I ran towards them crying..kule game bendikhaliswa ngu sisi njengoba sezo sweleka :( :( ....ndafikela kubo bathula kodwa bebethetha.. Me : malume nooo! Malume uphi umama utheni xakufika mna nathula? :( :( :( :( :( :( ayikwazi ukwenzeka lena Doc she has recoverd well and will be discharged tomorow. :( :( :( zange ndibesabuza noba ebephethwe yintoni I just cried calling on Gods name...uba wena umkhulu bawo! Ndiyabulela bawo.
Posted on: Tue, 27 May 2014 09:40:35 +0000