isolation.. when I came out at 17 I was already feeling like I wasnt a part of my community.. I was Gay and they did not accept that in my environment so I left and tried to find a new environment.. then at 18 when I got HIV I felt like I was even more alone.. shunned by anyone who was attracted to me because of their fear of the virus in those days and I felt like God was kicking me out.. my circle of acceptance was dwindling more and more.. as life continued and I couldnt seem to fit in with any of the cliques.. I even found myself without a place to live. I stayed in my van and camped in the woods and slept in parking lots. Even now I spend every day alone. other than a brief acknowledgement when I see a neighbor there are times when I do not interact with any other people for a week or more and even then my interaction may be limited to whatever happens between myself and the cashier at the grocery store. What Im trying to say is that I know loneliness I know it like I know myself. I know it like a bird knows to fly south in the winter. When youve made it back with your soul intact the retrieval is complete. When I come out of my shell it will not be in shame or in doubt.. it will be with confidence so that I might stand out!
Posted on: Sun, 24 Aug 2014 02:38:48 +0000
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