it is almost a year since derek passed away, in that time, i have learned a lot about life, myself, my family, extended family, and i like what i see, derek taught me a lot of things in the 4 1/2 years i knew him, some days are easier than others to deal with losing a child, but none, none is ever easy , the most important thing in life, is to live it like you will not see tomorrow............its amazing how easy it is to get caught up in daily stuff in this life, after derek died, i swore up and down i would never let that happen to me again, what i have found is that it is exceedingly easy to focus on the daily life stuff, not because i want to, but because it just happens, we are human, however, knowing what i know now, as a result of losing my son, MY SON, MY FREAKING SON, the fastest runner, best shooter, batter, strongest guy, best lookin, and most noble of a person, ..............my very own son, after putting him in the ground, that lifeless 3 1/2 foot body of my son laying in that casket for the last time, and having thevery foundations of my being shaken until i nearly cracked, ........i see the real meaning of life, the real secret of life, i wouldnt trade that for the world...........as i go about daily life, trying to move on, i constantly have to reset my mind as to what is really important, i truely feel sorry for people that have no clue how vain, shallow, and useless the things we cling to in daily life are which can be cars, houses, clothes, social status, education,how fat we are or how skinny we are, and yes, even beliefs if they are not sincere and heartfelt and held for the wrong reason.......................when derek died, i was the one there with him............i took that last ride with him on the chopper, when he took his last breath his daddy was there all the way with him,,,,,,,,all the way, to the hilt, well, i am proud to say that is the way derek lived life, all the way, to the hilt, i personally now live life wide open, all the way, to the hilt, because you never know when your time to leave may come. Dwack lead.......stagger left, missing man, AB, dad check, mom check, boogler boogler check, dwack lead, last ao til we meet again. out. I took that last ride with derek, on that day April 19, 2013, at 1205 he checked out, he was gone. youtube/watch?v=E6EQgzPX7G4
Posted on: Thu, 13 Mar 2014 03:07:22 +0000
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