just going to share my heart...... Last few weeks the Lord has been drawing me to look into His heart, that Bridegroom heart for the bride....in His heart He reveals through the Holy Spirit the church in the context of their worship and surrender to His Word, His Leadership and to Love Him as He the Lord Jesus desires to be loved and ultimately that means Loving the Father the way the He wants to be loved - everything Jesus does leads us to the Father and the Holy Spirit will always lead us to Jesus and His written Word ..... as I begin to really see, not in part but the real deal so to speak I am overwhelmed...its more than I can bare ...what happens is my spirit receives everything the Lord brings in knowledge, revelation insight and sight but my soul is overwhelmed within me ....I cant bare it ...it hits my emotions and all I can do is weep and although there is nothing wrong with weeping the weeping doesnt edify my understanding nor does it help anyone elses ...so I long to be able to bare this burden into the place of prayer now I must pray for myself to be made more like Him so that I dont interpret out of my soul where there are base things that dont line up with the Lords response - I want HIS response not mine shallow understanding...so anger or even righteous indignation is incorrect ...though I wasnt feeling those emotions or feelings what I did feel was an overewhelming power to confront and though directed by the Lord its fine but the strength I felt coming up out of my spirit was so strong I could not bare it ....it was frightening in a way to me so I dont want to draw back but I am so aware of the weakness of my soul....and this brings me to the place of need.....but I dont want to give in to my soul at that point and give it comfort ...my soul needs the Fathers love that says this battle is MY Sons but I want you to be a part ...and comfort comes but my soul is untrained so I must buffet it with discipline - food for me is the quickest way ....a desire comes to comfort my soul with a favorite food like ice cream ....but the Father who has wisdom is trying to show me He can take the father I dont have that would say its going to be ok - keep going for it God will break through.....God My Father picks me up and sends the Holy Spirit to dont go have Dairy Queen ....just take some healthy frozen bananas and soy milk and come to the place of comfort in My Presence in prayer ...and there I find understanding in communion with the Holy Spirit and my soul is purified by this fire instead of withdrawing .....this is where I will stay now for the next few days - in the place of prayer to gain more understanding so I can look on the fire in the Bridegrooms eyes and carry that burden with Him .....may He be heard as He walks amongst the lampstands
Posted on: Tue, 25 Mar 2014 13:58:11 +0000