medical: If your stroke damaged the part of your brain that controlled movement of muscles, your brain might not be hearing those important signals from the affected muscles. The body goes into a “safe mode” to keep the limbs protected. When the damaged brain is no longer able to understand the usual signals from the muscle, the spinal cord might send its own impulses to the muscles in those limbs to remain contracted, or tight, so the muscles don’t get overstretched and torn. aha, thats what is happening. So me reporting reduced feeling of where my arm and leg is in space, or how tense the muscles are, are also a direct cause of problem. so playful activity would help. Here I curse devotees not giving a damn, when they can help, if they just wanted to. Who would not want to help a vaisnava in problem - no one, it turns out. So much talk of philosophy, and so little desire to do something. So my desire to give up this world, this body, and all pratkrita-bhaktas is rational. Any sane bhakta would jump on the chance of helping a vaisnava, since that is the way to receive mercy of both vaisnava and Krishna. Consequently prakrita-bhaktas are insane, and need compassion. Me getting invalidised is a blessing, not a curse. Someone who does not want to help an invalidised older vaisnava is insane. I dont care so much, since I really dont need to get my body better. I have every function I need. A tounge to chant Krishnas name, and a good cognition. I manage, even though daily life is a tapasya. I am dreaming of Vraja-bhumi, where I can have constant sadhu-sanga with ragatmika bhaktas. Who would not? Appearently Krishna dont consider my bodily movement to be of importance for me to reach my destination. Oh Madhava, is my prayer, I am suffering, please grant me entrance to Vraja-bhumi, so I can be releived of my suffering condition. And Madhava know what I really mean with that, Madhava knows exactly what I require to be happy. Who I need. No material condition can releive me of my suffering. Only Madhava can.
Posted on: Sat, 23 Aug 2014 11:19:18 +0000