#patienceAsApatient: “Let it go; let it go.” Could Disney have been onto something? I think so; and, for once, the message wasn’t hidden like the large golden penis in The Little Mermaid or the topless woman in The Rescuers. Disney knocked this one outta the park. If we want to be free, we must first accept that there is pain in our heart – pain that’s been stored up, pain that most of us have spent years trying to keep it there, pain so deep we don’t have to feel it. The irony: all the joy, beauty, love and peace within us is on the other side of our pain. “No expansion or evolution can take place without change, and periods of change are not always comfortable.” Michael A. Singer Man, did this man open my eyes AND fill me with hope. The Untethered Soul is a MUST READ! I believe I got through its 181 pages in 4 hours and was annoyed by any interruption (the Birdz included). If I look back over the past 3 years of my life, change has been the only constant – change within my world and within my family. I’ve experienced switches around with Merck work (Thank goodness I’m still employed.), separation, divorce, my sweet Jebbers, the obvious hurdles in the development of my ittle men and their young boy progression, school changes and moves, a new roommate (my mom – always SO easy #not), moving from W. Alabama (which since has been bulldozed) and the disruption of decades of holiday traditions. Wouldn’t you know it, the thing that’s been the hardest and seemed most painful is all things BURRIS: my beautiful family of origin. Not in angry way – well, maybe sometimes but more like the reality of an aging mother & father AND the overwhelming anxiety over and the fear of loss. Even with a divorce, layoffs, a stint at Menninger, my many doubts about my abilities as a mother, and my worries over Jack and Bo’s emotional growing pains, I’ve stayed pretty calm, controlled and confident. I’ve trusted and known that we’re all going to be okay. Honestly, I’ve always just worried about my Burris loves. I remember feeling it in junior high, then when my parents split up in 1994, again with Bo and Jeb in business together, 6 years ago with my mom’s Parkinson’s diagnosis, and the list goes on. It seems crazy. No one has asked me to worry like I do. I think I just took on this job. As a martyr? As a caregiver? I am OH SO comfortable as a caregiver. #mongrelrescuer911 Worry is a feeling. It should pass, but sometimes it doesn’t. And the reason it doesn’t? It’s all because of us; we don’t let go, and we don’t give room for this to pass through us. Why? Because it’s pain. We hold onto it, and holding onto it causes pain. Michael Singer says most people don’t even realize they are running around with pockets of internal pain – pain that needs working out. In order to be worked out, AND, in order to have freedom, we must learn not to be afraid of inner pain and disturbance. It’s just part of creation. To spend your life avoiding pain means it’s always right behind you. Our true greatness hides on the other side of that layer of pain.” M. Singer I’m beginning to accept that it’s in there, know that I’m going to feel it, and will relax then let it pass. It always does.
Posted on: Wed, 14 Jan 2015 02:08:25 +0000
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