somewhere out there... theres good trustworthy people on the planet who cared about me... I just dont know where... I havnt known any since 2010 & I need people like them in my life... but only if there is going to be any fukn hope 2 get my fukn car & teeth fixed b4 its to late 2 save any fukn reasons ther could ever be not to kill myself... been screaming out for some fukn help with those things from the fukn sadistic assholes at county mental health & afilliates, since 2010...! Even when I had financial options... the last fukn options I would ever fukn hav 2 fix at least my car... all they wanted to do was ignore my urgent life/future & ability 2 live independently, saving needs, to teach me how to get a discount buspass... after ignoring the shit of what the bus does 2 my back, & its one of the things they were tryn 2 put me thru more lengthy red tape run around 2 get me 2 a doctor 4 & hooked up with some in home support... then cancelled me as a client evn more 4 being upset that they just dont listen, & how many times their inability 2 listen has cost me soooo much money, options, my life/future, any reasons not 2 kill myself, my ability 2 trust a damn one of them, etc.. & since I got cancelled even more... there was no follow thru on any of it, cuz all they do is cause more trauma, then I walk away with more things blocked from my mind, & more functionality memories along with them, or the only memories I can hold onto is 2 treat myself however I was treated by them.... with negelegence, endangerment, & neglect.... the only help they were willing 2 assist with were all things that were ignoring my actual needs, so other people can get paid 2 ignore & neglect & endanger me, & cost me my ability 2 help myself rather than having them tryin 2 get themselves paid 2 develope dependence on them only being allowed 2 help me once in a while, leavin me shit out of luck if I need more assistance than that... and anyone with a fukn heart, a brain, a consience, any honor, decency, or integrity within them.... would fukn do something about that shit.... not perpetuate the fukn problem by being someone else who ignores the truth...! cuz no one will listen to you or give a shit about you if you have already been so fukn severley pushed over the fukn edge, & terrorized, terrified, traumatized, sick inside, 2 even be around or talk to any more assholes who ignore that shit....!!!!!! & do nothing to assist in solutions...!!!!!!!!
Posted on: Sat, 30 Nov 2013 17:33:12 +0000
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