sunday nite reflections. . .a beautiful weekend spent with a special lassie who made me laugh like I hadnt in a long long time. who made me forget for a wee moment the journey I am on. a sunday spent celebrating my beautiful mother-in-laws 80th birthday and feeling the warmth of family surrounding her on her special day. watching her husband of 50+ years give her a soft birthday kiss on the forehead and smiling to myself because my wonderful husband came from this family and i look forward to that same soft kiss on my forehead when we are 80 years old. this week will be full of scans and doctors appointments. anxiety is high this evening for me and i feel convicted that i slept in and missed church. feeling convicted because, although, i pray almost every day, i never pray as fervently as when a scan is near. that brings on guilt and doubt. whether it is necessary or not, it is something i feel guilty about. but i still lay out my heart and my wishes to God. knowing He hears and praying that His plan is the same as mine. cancer is my new normal. i know that. but, for the past 48 hours the love, laughter and sunshine made me forget. even if just for a moment. i dont have an emoticon to show how im feeling. my words are my emoticons.
Posted on: Mon, 28 Oct 2013 02:06:31 +0000
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