*super long babble ahead, its not important, only read it if youre bored haha* So its Mental Health week and Ive been picking at my own mental health and ways of dealing with things. Ive been thinking a lot about self diagnosis and how common it is to WebMD your symptoms for physical and mental health issues. I dont understand how diagnosis works, like, what is the benchmark? What is normal? Does it depend on your range of experience? We know depression and anxiety can be both environmental and physiological so how do we determine if we are mentally unwell or just reacting to an event? Is it long term symptoms? What if you dont have enough to classify as anything? How does age, gender and class affect it? Being young puts me in a higher risk category. Why is this? Is it because I have no direction? (False, I know exactly what I want) Is it about how the world is today? Its the best time to be alive because of opportunity and progression in human rights, but the pressures are enormous. You can be anything you want. That is realistically impossible, especially because were all constantly told we have to aim ridiculously high and are judged on a bullshit system that doesnt account for different learning styles. The lack of stability is also horrifying, nothing is guaranteed anymore like it was for the baby boomers. Your home isnt stable, employment isnt stable etc. Ive been put on antidepressants twice and only used them for a week each time. The first time I was 17 and felt so isolated. I wasnt of course, physically I was surrounded. I just wanted someone to understand - which Ive since learned is impossible. People can understand youre having a shit time but no one can ever understand you or what its like to live in your own head. I never got into self harm, it was just self loathing and blaming anyone else I could. The second time I was 19 and unemployed for about 10 months. I got angry at that prescription. I didnt have a job, I wanted help getting a job not pills. I guess I maybe could of made money by selling them? Haha. It feels odd to not have anything or not have been diagnosed in this day and age. I think thats why I question it so much. I have my baggage and struggles. Am I naive to be confident that I have just successfully coped with it all? Of course there are residual effects from my experiences, but you learn to live with those. Or am I just in denial and really dangerously mentally unwell? And if I am who decides?
Posted on: Wed, 08 Oct 2014 01:03:04 +0000
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