there’s a tl;dr if you don’t want to read this, though I firmly believe is very good advice (meaning, just read it, yo) As June draws to a close, I have a few thoughts I’d like to reflect upon about the past month. Very simply put: June was an emotional roller coaster for me in more ways than one (and I apologize, Augustus Waters, but sadly for me, it didn’t only go up.) To be 100% honest, I actually believe The Fault in Our Stars insinuated a lot of what would be the oncoming grief. John Green showed the world an instance in which two souls made each other so very inexplicably happy – even if their love lasted far too short a time, and eeeeeverybody wants a love like Hazel Grace and Augustus Waters (if you’re saying you don’t or shaking your head no right now, you’d be lying. We all know you do, and it’s nothing to be ashamed of, no matter what age you are.) And that is the fault in The Fault in Our Stars. It’s so common for people to make romance the center of their existence, and the media definitely does not help us in that regard. Love is now not only an insatiable desire, but many of us see it as an entitlement of existence; we believe the universe owes us someone to both love and be loved by. This mentality is so destructive on a multitude of levels, and that is why June demolished me. You feel like you need someone or something to make yourself feel whole, and then you just wind up feeling so lost and hopeless when you can’t find that person or thing. And what your brain does to you in that silence when you’re alone is just absolutely brutal. I spent a lot of this month feeling lost and upset because I didn’t have my own Augustus Waters, and I just feel like June zoomed by and it was basically a big pity party for me, which not to say that’s a bad thing. Everyone needs time where they can just think things over, ya know? But here’s the thing: no one person will fill that space in your heart. It just won’t happen. It’s not the boy with the pretty brown eyes or the girl with the cascading blonde hair. You can be seventeen or seventy, and you will always note that slight emptiness in the bottom of your heart, and you know why? Only Jesus can fill that space. Don’t get me wrong – human love is so very beautiful and it makes you feel on top of the world and you forget all of your troubles for those few minutes or hours, but it is not completing. It won’t bring you the lasting happiness and satisfaction that God’s love will. His love is abundant and restorative and will never abandon you. No one person’s love will ever compare to that of Christ’s. I’ve made the mistake of being separated from Him this past month, and I’ve made some poor choices and done some things, and that’s human nature. But we are forgiven, and that’s so rad, I can’t even describe it. To know that His love cleans us of our sins? That’s an amazing feeling. (: tl;dr – We all make mistakes, and it’s perfectly normal. To love someone is not a crime. Just know that God’s love is greater. We need to stop valuing romantic love more than His love. have a great day yall thanks for listening to my ramblings
Posted on: Thu, 26 Jun 2014 20:18:23 +0000
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