this one is written by a really great pal of mine Amir Parvez. i take a bow..beautiful it is..read it guys.. I just sit here struggling to think, trying to understand To figure out something meaningful from all these thoughts swirling through my head, All those feelings whirlpooling in my heart It’s been years since I wrote but today I felt like doing it again Though I know it’s different this time No soothing smell of paper, No raucous scribbling as I filled those pores that craved ink But electronic, uniform and spotless letters on this cold, lifeless screen Manipulated by the cursor whose rapid blinking often makes your mind go blank and scream I’m still just sitting here Looking for words to make you see what I see, feel as I feel I had hoped it would make me feel better like it used to during those dark, stormy days But as I struggle to come up with something word by word, line by line That empty feeling penetrates deeper and deeper devouring my mind, crippling my fingers And the strong urge to write paired with the inability to fathom the right words Makes it too hard for me to bear this never ending pain with no other outlet, no refuge at all. Damn I can’t write anymore Hope you know what I’m talking about I don’t know what to say I just can’t understand what’s wrong with me maybe it’s just the writer’s block or maybe it’s the end I can’t flee Oh I wish I could just go on writing but who would bother to pay heed To all these incoherent ramblings and the latent expressions you can’t read. Alas, I can never explain those limitless thoughts, those fathomless feelings emanating from the darkest corners of our minds and the deepest veins in our hearts I think I shouldn’t write anymore I think I am done It doesn’t heal me like it used to but evokes all those memories I had buried All those scars I had covered the scars that never fade And intensifies the haemorrhage of all those wounds I had smothered the wounds that never heal Perhaps it’s due to all those cobwebs of life All those memories and experiences that you have tried your best to forget, the ones you wished wouldn’t haunt you As you keep living them again and again in your daydreams, in your nightmares Until you realize that you never had any choice but to live with them forever We just go on living... Numb but breathing We dwell in the past, we dream of the future Hoping for a good life, waiting for the right time to live, to feel, to love, to heal But it hurts me when I wonder how tormenting it would be to realize That all hope is futile and life just passes by...
Posted on: Fri, 15 Nov 2013 11:39:51 +0000
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