*thought while doing fan art* Sometimes people didnt really meant to be mean, but their words sounds hurtful and sarcastic, wounding us indirectly. But sometimes we toss it away, and laugh. In truth, we toss it into ourselves, and make ourselves busy to avoid flashback that is going to come when were free and staring into spaces. We involuntarily hurt ourselves in the end of the day, in blankets, thinking about why are we treated or spoken to in such manner. Then we start thinking about our faults in the past that doesnt really relate to that particular insulting speech then we start to be down and our self motivation and esteem drops. We start to withdraw from the society slowly, bits by bits, then we start to question why am I being a loner? why wont others include me in their activities? why am I.. this and that. So to deal with it is kinda hard, no one can literally not take anything to heart. We all think about our day in the end of the day, unless you are fast asleep. This is why I select my words, this is why I wont talk because I know I always speak without filter, I know that my words can hurt someone even unintentionally. I know that even right now, i might accidentally hurt someone with this status. But overall, I think we all should start being careless, to not take anything to heart. Also, at the same time, we shouldnt really think everyone laughs at our jokes. But this is just my thoughts, i am not everyones mind. I cannot be precise even thought i love the idea of absolute precision. And yeah, i think alot while doing arts, because its the only time my hand takes command and my mind wanders and, sometimes, flashbacks. Past is inevitable, but the future is always there to look up to.
Posted on: Tue, 07 Oct 2014 10:59:15 +0000
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