today was one of the hardest days of my life I didnt Sleep at all last night all I could do was cry and my man didnt sleep one bit either becuz he held me and talked to me all night we cried both sad and happy tears as we talked about our memories with our precious handsome loveing nephew zay say .as morning came the tears slowed down I got ready and we drove to the church to tell our baby nephew goodbye till we meet again in heaven....I totally lost it in the parking lot I couldnt handle What was going on my love held me for a bit and I told him I cud not do this as,much as,I know it was the right thing to do my heart wouldnt let me go in that church without completely losing it and I did not want to make it any harder for my fan especially my sister and brother in law so Maurice went in I stayed in the parking lot crying my heart out I calmed down about 45 min later and walked in to the back of the church said a prayer and walked back out about ten min after being in there ...a lot of my fam are a little upset with me but Im sure they just dont understand Im different From a lot of ppl funerals and goodbyes are just way to difficult for me I cant ever keep calm I lose it and I would have completely lost it to day especially it being my baby nephew who I was so so close to who I loved like was my own who I spent almost every day wwith it was just to much for me and I know my sister and bustA completely understood why I couldnt be in the church very long and as long as those two understand I really dont care much What any one else may think....ME UNCLE REESE KAYLA JARIN AND NINI LOVE U VERY MUCH ZAY ZAY WE WILL NEVER EVER FORGET YOU AND WILL MISS YOU EVERY SINGLE DAY UNTIL WE ARE ALL TOGETHER AGAIN REST IN PARADISE AUNTY NANAS BABY BOY ...MY LIFE WILL NEVER BEE THE SAME ILL ALWAYS FEEL LIKE SOMETHING IS MISSING UNTIL IM WITH YOU AGAIN MY ZAY A BIG PRICE OF MY HEART IS IN HEAVEN FOREVER NOW LOVE U MIJO ;(
Posted on: Sat, 13 Dec 2014 06:19:56 +0000
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