you know..i always thought that our love story was different. even if it didnt have an ideal start..it was very unique in its own way..everything dat hapnd..everything we felt for each other initially made us feel dat v r meant to be! i always hoped initially wen u wer wid him..dat u be wid me only..i cant share u wid him like dis..bt nvr it used to come out of my mouth thinking u vl leave me..at dat time..i used to feel soo horrible dat i cant even hav the girl i love in a way i want..bt i always kept my mouth shut..later wen i started seeing dat u urself want to be wid me..hav fallen for me..i still used to say dat u r going to be wid him only..bt one day i opened my mouth telling u dat leave him n be wid me only..coz even u wanted dat..i could see it..bt nvr did i think dat u vl call dat as an attempt to kick him out of ur life..the week u became mine v took our relationship to the highest level..i cant ever forget 28th December..first time v loved each other as husband and wife..amazing feeling it was for me..bt it wasnt dat day i started to feel u r mine now..dat came much later.. even after dat..days n weeks passed by..n our relationship started to shake a ll..fights n arguments became regular..i could see things end to end..wer u r going wrong..n wer i am going wrong..everything i used to c.. initially during dec-jan I could c dat u r afraid dat I will leave u or v couldn’t b together..i could c dat u r nt totally over him..u cannot digest dat he isn’t in ur life as u had thought..bt I nvr said nething coz I thought u vl take ur time..bt some incidents hapnd..ani mala pun insecurities watayla laglya..and in an attempt to over correct myself..i forgot who I am which led to further troubles..bt our love nvr diminished.. during march..i was a mess..it was too late wen I realized dat apology wasn’t nufh..den I decided dat let nething happen..i wnt change who I was..for any reason..bt by that time..u wer already in a state which was vry emotional and sensitive..u reacted to everything good thing I used to say..u tuk negative meanings of everything I used to talk to you..coz of which v used to fight even more.. bt all this nvr bothered me..coz I knew dat u vl b wid me only..bt now..since april-may..i could see in u..dat u doubt me..u doubt our relation..u doubt our “meant to be” thought..u always in a fight used to say dat u vl leave m n all..u knw wat u used to say..n it started making me weak..it started making me lose faith in my love for u n ur love for me.. I need u..more than you know..i nvr asked u to understand wat I feel..y I feel..sometimes I open my mouth to tell u pls understand me here..karan ders a need for u to understand me der..i knw dat u have been thru a lot..done a lot..and the journey or struggle hasn’t even begun!..bt pls don’t ever doubt my love..dont think of me as a villain..always talk highly of our love..n wat v hav done for each other..it wasn’t wid an intention to do a favor on anyone..or it wasn’t to kick some one out..watever hapnd has hapnd..me calling him and telling abt us..i nvr thought dat hw he would feel..i was more angry dan sober dat day..bt after dat day I realized dat I cant take rash decisions wen it comes to us..all steps need to taken carefully.. Let me tell u one thing today..i care more abt him dan u think I do..m nt a devil who will vry cunningly surgically remove him out of ur life..i knw things will take time n they should..its not easy to wipe out a 2 yr old relationship..n dat too a serious one..i understand it.. Bt pls consider dat I AM A GUY!..i also feel certain things even if I dnt verbal dem..u have not left for me as a favor on me..u loved me damn it..i didn’t make u leave him forcefully..making fake promises getting u to be wid me..i didn’t do nething like dat..pls asa nako bolat jaus..ajun ek sangto..tu tya cha shi kami boltes ki jast..kasa boltes..kay boltes..mala kahich problem nahiye..bt mala khup detail madhe aikayche naste te..kharach sangtoi..wen u tell me na..he said this..he said dat..he made this smiley..he is dis..he is funny n all..mala nahi aavadat..he is ur ex!..it makes me feel smthing which only a guy can understand..n its nt dat I am feeling this today, out of no where..i have always felt this..bt nvr said it..coz I always had reasons to calm myself down..dat this is gonna happen coz she is wid him..ki this is gonna happen coz she just broke up wid him..ki this is gonna happen coz she cares abt his state..bt today..mala kharach asa first time wattle ki I dnt hav a reason to calm myself down..today I felt ki mala hey aikaychi garaj nahiye..n garaj nahiye not in a bad way..garaj nahiye as in..i shouldn’t b knowing things between u two in soo much of details..ur frndship wid him should get more space from me..coz I dnt like knowing wat he said n all..if its anything imp n very essential..i ask u myself..bt certains things..its lesser the better..and dats all I meant today..nthg else.. Tu majha fakt ekda vichar kar..tu baki saglya goshtin cha kiti vichar kartes..majha side la yeun ekda vichar kar ki me kuthe chukto?..i knw I have made mistakes in past..reading ur chats was one of dem..callin him n telling was another one..bt baki me kahich nahi kele aahe ga..be it in the way I talk to u..b it the way I tell u things..b it nething..i am exactly the guy I was u fell in love wid bt today my every activity irritates u..i dnt knw wer I hav gone wrong..initially I have written ki mala kalte end to end..ki wer u hav gone wrong..wer I have gone wrong..bt since mid march..i dnt c myself going wrong..kharach sangtoi..der are times wen I hav said a lott of things..bt m changing as a person..m getting more irritated..n more yelling types..bt wenever I hav yelled its bcoz smthing has hapnd betwn us.. Today again m trying to be who i was..cool and calm and composed…mhanun me ooradat nahiye..parat parat call karun bhandat pun nahiye.. Ek ch goshta sangavi shi watte tula..aaj majha vishwas halla aahe..my faith in us..it has shaken..coz of wat u hav said..me tula kahi ch chukiche kiva kharab bollo nahiye annuu aaj..ani tu jar fakt ekda majha side ni vichar karshil tar tula kalel..ki me villain nahiye..mala je watat aahe te genuine aahe..selfish nahi..selfish asto tar kadhich bolun takle aste hey.. Bt majha trust aaplya madhe shake hot challa aahe..n today I dnt knw..coz of wat u said..m shocked..majha baddal tujhi ashi image hoti??..aannuu me tasa nahiye..jasa tu vichar kartes..me khup sabhya hoto..ani aahe aaj pun..i used to talk to girls..n dat too a few girls..some became frnds on their own..n some became coz I wanted dem to..bt me flirt kivah line nahi maraycho..me eka simple gharat la simple mulga aahe..ek simple life live karto me..mala tantrums kivah planning and plotting yet nahi..aai-papa kay mhantat..te ch khara asa samjhun chalto me.. Tujha war mana pasun prem karto me..tula aaj majha raag ala aahe..mhanun tula hey sagla drama kivah dialogue watel..bt khara aahe..tula kadhich ek gf cha nazare ne nahi baghitle me..ek wife cha nazare ni ch baghto..aare gf ani relationship kay aste mala tar kadhi apeksha pun navti ki majhi ek gf asel..bt ek goshta mahit aahe mala majha baddal ki me khup honestly tujha baddal feel karto..and if not for who I am or wat kind of a person I am..bt atleast for wat I feel for..i derserve u for those feelings atleast..i am more from within anuu..u knw it..pls dnt b angry at me..chidtes tar tula manawayla aanand watto..bt itki boltes na mala..itki padun boltes na tar majhi iccha marte ga..ani vishwass halto majha aaplya prema war cha..tujha prema mule aaj me jagto aahe..its no less dan a miracle dat m alive..i owe u my life..pls majha war itka doubt nako karus..me tula selfish watto??..pls see frm my side also..me villain nahiye ga..majha manaat tujha saathi ajun khup kahi aahe..tujha war paise kharch karne..tujha saathi gifts aanne..khup watte mala..khup watte ki swatala tujha layak banavu..khup try pun karto.. Me kharab nahiye..me selfish pun nahiye..me ek ch mistake keli aahe ki I have fallen in love wid a committed girl!..tula je majha baddal aaj watat aahe naa..tya cha fakt 5% I am responsible..baki is in ur mind..n the negativity u r facing in ur house!..i am ur support..atleast I try to be..i wnt say nething karan ata tuch bolli call war tula farak nahi padnaar.. U want to abuse me..yell at me..do whatever u want wid me..bt pls asa nako bolus ki tula pathetic watte dat u ever loved me..i hav been a better person ever since u came into my life..i dnt see any positiveness in you since past month and a half..me kay karu..aj jhale tya goshti madhe mistake kona chi ch nahiye..i said smthing dat I felt..u cannot understand dat coz only a guy can..bt me tujha kadun khup kami goshti expect karto anuu..kharach sangto..majha aai-papa chi kalji ghene..neet abhyass karne..sincere hone…and this one..bas!!!..i dnt expect nething else frm u..majha war bhale hi tu ata prem nako karus..rahin me ekta..ani marine k divas..bt jar asa bollis na ki tula pathetic watte dat u feel in love wid me..me maru pun shaknar nahi.. Majha melelya ajji chi shappat khato me..roj me tujha war jast prem karto..roj mala tujha shi lagnar karnya chi jast iccha hote..bt gele 2 weeks madhe me hallo aahe aatun.. Kharach sangto..fakt ekda me aaj kay bollo..kaa bollo te majha side ni vichar karun bagh..pls think ki I knw all dat u hav done for me..even den I told u this..der has to be smthing dat is disturbing me naa..mhanun me bollo asel naa..jar tula tari wattle me khup wrong bollo..den m really sry.. Last la ek ch sangin tula..mala majhi annuu havi aahe..ji majha war prem karaychi…ji swatawar prem karaychi..ji nehemi majha aikaychi..positively ghaychi..jila me nehemi samjhun ghyaycho..i love her..i and want her..pls think me kaa bolat aahe aaj hey sagla.. Jar tula aaj pun watat asel ki majha barobar life spend karne is going to be a mistake..den pls dnt be wid me..i vl survive knowing dat u r happy widout me..bt I cant survive knowing u r sad wid me..khup jast prem karto me tujha war..khup jast..jiva pali kade..deva pali kade.. -Tujha chintu
Posted on: Tue, 10 Sep 2013 16:37:54 +0000
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