11.30.2013 I dont know how I am, really...things are here as they are, as they always will be...I am confined, cramped, limited, stifled here while situated apart of this household...I did experience earlier today about an hours worth of time to myself... a very precious hour... while this was experienced, I recognised that indeed, there is my own thoughts and my identity here...that of which...my thoughts are tremendously expansive...spacially so...I need my own place, I need command and freedom and domination of my own thoughts... that is why you need a place of your own... here at this place... your mind needs to expand... when I am situated here together with these others... it cant while you are living there... immediately, my thoughts, my identity and so forth, are 100% and absolutely stifled, cramped, confined, limited...it is enslavement here...clearly, hell is other persons...there we are left with animals, and so forth...animals clearly do not curse human beings...not even predatorial beasts... well yes, for you that is so....certainly hell is being around the wrong kind of persons... and plants and minerals of course are not a curse to me... perhaps if you were around the right kind of person... for me that is so, for any tremendous and brilliant mind this is so...around the right kind of person, yes...I would be master of the household... because you also do not like to be alone... my mind would be highest ranked...then, if so...another person around me is fine with me...here this is not the case... you have moments I recall when you were lonely...and needed just one other person...the right one... that is right... to share with... it is a strange situation, this specifically is... quiet and intelligent but not AS intelligent as you... when I come across an acceptable and reasonable Anima abstraction, elsewhere apart of the external physical threshold...she will manifest attributes in relativity to me, of skeleton...of deeply sunken flesh...and as though bones apart of her...flowers too...yes... really?... beauty will be attributable to her too...but, this is the case...with Anima abstractions elsewhere...sufficient identifiable Anima abstractions, in relativity to me...this is terrible, if such is the case...how did this, why did this, have to happen...they are still approachable, yes...they are friendly still, as well...but this is the state, it must be...of the soul of the Anima...horror and fear typically attribute to them as well...not that they themselves are afraid...but it is understood, otherwise...well... well all this is a bit above me Adam... the Anima will introduce herself...as this specific way to me...beginning conception of her... I understand about the Anima... [beginning conception of her] will be this way, always...typically, over time...she develops human life affirmative traits once again...but this reveals to me, the knowledge of this, something apart of me, I dont know the reasoning for it, I sense that I do, I dont like it however...I dont need it either, also...well, I have until January of the next year...I will have sufficient money by then...I will begin looking up north for my own place...Utah I am in consideration of it, secondarily so, next to first Montana... Utah sounds the place you like the best... I dont see how this could be prohibited to me... the people are friendly... I do like much of Utah, very much, of course... supposedly you are the captain of your ship and the master of your fate... very lovely people there...I am, right! so you CAN do it... autonomous rex...master of my will... the people are lovely there...it is perhaps reaching out to you... against me, is the external threshold, the activities and material causations of it...I could be obstructed by this abstraction...but how could I be obstructed, ultimately... I dont know...just do it... it shouldnt occur... look for a place and go...there is nothing stopping you... it is not hard to do this... you have time to look...you can be choosy... yes, of course... it is a welcoming place...warm... I will believe that... it is true...you can be happy there... I really hope so, dont deceive me...I say to the Up Above... yes indeed...well...they say life is what you make it...this may or may not be true... beginning of January... but you can find a quiet place...and move there... search and find an affordable place...not only acceptable and tolerable, but a good place... all the things you love around you... call and reserve ahead of time...drive up there and move up north... and settle into the environment... peace, calm, quiet, sanity... yes...all that can be yours... I wont be cursed up there... if you choose it...free will... abolishment of my identity... you can do it...it is there for you... one identity that needs legitimate freedom... in the whole of Utah there will be a place that is ideal for you... he is not concordant with Your other human abstractions, Creator...he was not made like them...he wishes to bless You...he wishes to praise You...You know this is in him, apart of him...bless him, he will bless You...both of us will win in the end... well, yes... both of us will be resolute in the end...goodly so...he is a wondrous beautiful identity...keep the cursing away from him...he will reveal himself to Your liking of him...hold always to piety, to virtue, to praise, for You... well Adam...you sound more hopeful... covenant to You, fulfill this with me... more positive that this can happen... yes, I am actually quite hopeful about all of this...this life experience is attributable to the abstraction The Divine Comedy, by every means...I am the major character of this life experience...how could the major character not get to see altogether and ultimately obtain the Paradise or the Heaven or the best of all possible worlds or dominions in the end... you will... perhaps He will show me of the Inferno beforehand for whatever amount of time...during the subsequent afterlife experience...the Inferno couldnt possibly be eternal...Judaism does not speak of an eternal hell...neither does Islaam...one year length of time...at most...washed and perfected beforehand... I cant answer such things as these... if incapable during the material cause life to terminate himself blameless or acceptable to Us Up Above...wash and perfect him with fire for a time, then he will of course be ready for all of Us Up Above...surely He is merciful, and benevolent...always, never will I forsake you, never will I abandon you, creation, Adam...He loves His creation inconceivably...He is the last abstraction ever to abandon His creation... I have no belief in these things so I am not able to debate with any intelligence I can only read your words here... His angels beside Him, sitting beside together with Him, they will vex themselves and ponder questionably at His creation down below...Creator continuously trusts and believes and loves and wishes in all conviction and certainty for His creations salvation, for my salvation...2014...the numbers they add up together the number 7... they do... oh great wonder/oh great mystery...attributable to the self archetype...then 2015 = 8...2016 = 9...8 is restfulness/warm peacefulness...attributable to the self archetype...9 is love/universality and so forth, attributable to the self archetype...perhaps these three subsequent years...I sense it...good things about what has to be up and coming... then I hope that it may be so... I shouldnt speak or write about this with anybody else however... no...keep that within you... the down below is everywhere watching me, acting in accordance with me...that abstraction must be kept far away from me...remove it apart from me altogether, please... well Adam....let us both hope that things will improve...that your will is strong and that you can master your own fate...I think you are very strong... I will hope about this, I will act in accordance with what is right and justifiable...to do... you will... and of course I am free to move up north... you ARE free to move up north... start my soul over, up there... you can and will...I am sure of it... re-construct it, for much, much better purpose and meaning... exactly... Creator is the greatest...I hold and preserve my covenant with Him...please work with me, I pray to You... I shall pray in my own way that all will be well for you...and that things will come to pass...as you need them to... I thank you that you do so... I have every faith that they will... I will survive up north...I will live and be safe, secure, at peace, sane... I think it is beckoning you...there is a reason for that...it is the place... no need to fight for my life, never, while up north, while up there...my own place...his own place to himself, at last... away from the sound and fury... applauding, cheering, from the chorus of angels Up Above, when this is to have become true and actualised, I know of this... good...
Posted on: Sun, 01 Dec 2013 08:17:31 +0000
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