2014 had been one of the craziest years. I was hospitalized, and then we figured out that I had stomach and esophageal ulcers.. - I got seemingly better & I had some awesome people by my side. I was in love, and so incredibly happy. Life was finally getting better & felt like it was me against the world. I made even more friends than the year before & got a raise at work. I was so happy! Medically I was healing well with the holes in my stomach and throat... and then.... Then life threw some curve balls. I honestly lost a couple people (the majority of us fixed it though, THANK GOODNESS) Months after, I thought I was better. Truthfully, I had to be so careful because even the slightest mistake in food choice would land me back at the doctors. And I did well. But honestly, after the summer ended, it seemed like I wasnt doing well. Back in October I lost more of my pets & it killed me inside. November was insane, and I got really sick. Now this isnt really anyones business but.... I went through heartbreak after a 2 year relationship where there was complete misunderstanding & it tore me apart. It hurts. Ill never stop caring but I wont let anyone tell me any differently how I felt about him. Christmas was torture & I honestly struggled to enjoy it, but somehow managed. Being by myself isnt easy. People expect me too get over it as if it meant nothing. But it meant everything and more to me. Im so grateful for the experience of love and everything we shared. This past week Ive hung with some great people & theyve helped me through the troubles Ive experienced. Im going through some other things and its made me realize a lot.... Im stronger than I realize and truthfully Ill be okay. I just dont need to be right now. Im gonna do things at my pace. 2015 - you suck already but Im here to stay and conquer everything you throw at me, tears & happiness. Ive been through so much this past month.....so.... I guess: Bring it on.
Posted on: Thu, 01 Jan 2015 22:26:41 +0000
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