Around 10 oclock tonight 3 years ago I was sitting outside starbucks in San Antonio on Stone Oak Parkway with my best friend Charlotte talking about life laughing and catching up since she had only just got back home from deployment maybe a week and a half before when my phone rang and the call was from my cousin Lizeths phone.... I remember hearing a bunch of chaos and her saying hang on I cant do this between sobs... I knew something wasnt right.... I could hear the phone being passed around and people crying and yelling in the background when Jimmy got on the phone... he said I dunno how to say this... Lees dead.... I remember feeling like the entire world stopped and was just all the sudden beyond sick and dizzy... I completely fell to the floor right there on the patio and remember screaming this isnt funny youre joking right this isnt funny why would you say that and him saying Im so sorry its not a joke.... I dont remember what I said after that I think it was something along the lines of Im on my way.... I dont even remember driving back to the house but I remember Charlotte following me and pretty much there with me the entire time.... I remember scrambling trying to pack a bag and figure it out ... we were supposed to move back that weekend... but it was only Wednesday night and Ace was in kinder and hadnt been unenrolled yet either.... I didnt care... my mind was gone I couldnt think all I could do was cry and try to figure out how to get home.... somewhere along the line my keys were taken away... I dont even remember sleeping.... I remember crying and being put in bed and somehow it was light out again.... I dont remember Anthony going to work that last day or getting Ace out of school or anything... I just remember somehow the trucks were packed and it was all done and we were all headed back to victoria and my amazing momma Virginia and best friend Charlotte was still right there ( I dunno if I ever told her how thankful and blessed I am for having her in my life....love you char)... the following week I dont even remember other then being surround by a family that was devestated.....no one saw it coming.... my life was completely and fundamental changed forever.... I lost my dad...and there isnt a single day that goes by that I dont think of him and miss him... there is so much I wish I couldve shared with him and say to him... even now three years later it hurts like it just happened yesterday... I loved him so much.... Im so very blessed though to have had (and still have) such an amazing support system through my family and friends... I honestly dont know how I wouldve gotten through it all without yall.... so since I probably dont say it enough I love yall and thank you for always being there for me.
Posted on: Sun, 14 Sep 2014 16:43:06 +0000