From a member: I am prior Air Force PJ that has 7 total tours. Ive been out of duty for 4 years this coming April. Ive been through the wringer these past 4 yrs, especially with addiction. I try to get rid of the images Ive seen; our own Fallen and Afghan Army as well. Ive been shot at, blown up, but the worst injury is in my mind. Those injuries do not heal like a physical one. Addiction has taken over my life and Ive lost many great relationships because of it and the worst is right at this very moment, the woman I want to marry is about to pull the plug on our relationship. I cannot hold a job, because of the anxiety and hyper alertness. And any money I do earn, gets washed back with a cold one. Ive tried treatment but it has gotten to the point where I miss more appointments than I go to because I cant take being at the VA and reliving the events I want to forget. I dont know what to do. Ive been through rehabs, tried everything you can imagine. But the spiral continues and Im about to have work release because of trying to buy pills from a neighbor. Im a tough dude, but medication has made me curl to the fetal position. Im messed up in the head, I know. But if I lose my best friend to this, Im afraid Ill do something stupid and lose my mind.
Posted on: Mon, 15 Dec 2014 18:00:01 +0000
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