Good morning folks. I hear a lot of newbies talk about how great they feel, how awesome everything is, theyre so grateful, bla bla bla, etc. A week later, theyre right back where they left off. Thats not how it went for me. In fact, that entire first year, everything sucked. The old timers encouraged me to express how I REALLY felt. If I was off, or riding that ever so brief pink cloud. (Both shall pass) If I had a question to ask it. To be as honest as I possibly could being a new comer. In reality, I was all over the place. I didnt know how to feel, and when I was feeling I wasnt sure what to do or think about it. So I talked about it. People could relate, and I with them. That first year was filled with pain, confusion, heart ache and brief moments of joy. I got through divorce. Deaths. Moves. Brand new beginnings. Trials and tribulations. Everything was new. Point being, nobody knew how I REALLY WAS unless I was honest when I told them. The result was simple. Each year has gotten better than the last, one day at a time. Im in the best spot Ive been in my life, and it will be even better if I continue to stay out of my way. Tmrw I approach another year of continuous sobriety from ALL mood and mind altering substances, relapse NOT being a part of the journey, aaaand I thank the people who patiently taught me how this deal REALLY works. Now I get the pleasure of teaching others. Its not about meetings and slogans. Receiving ur coin/key chain. It aint about just abstaining. It aint about counting clean time. Its about making ur clean time count. Its about working the steps and then living them. Letting go of all you thought you knew and adopting a new set of principals to live bye. Its about becoming the person you were intended to be all along. Then helping others find that person.
Posted on: Tue, 27 Jan 2015 14:24:10 +0000
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