Heart to Heart A month has passed and although i was asked to attend the 30th day ceremony and i did want to go,i did not go.A month has passed since raji or rajendra prasad has passed on and i still am not able to digest the fact that he is no more.Just 51 years old and he died of a heart attack and all i can think of is that is just not possible,for he was so healthy and strong and at one time the strongest in my mount road pals but for the bear who lives in canada called shenoy. As usual i came back from my morning exercise routine at about 7.00 am and after sometime i asked wifey to make a couple of dosas and she went in and a few minutes later came out and said i am so sorry but seeni had called to inform that raji his elder brother had died .i looked at her,i heard her and yet i could not comprehend what she had just said.Something turned in my tummy,something broke somewhere and my first reaction was what the hell babe,i have been home for nearly 45 minutes and now you come and tell me this. I called seeni and asked him,what can you ask him and yet i asked him is it true.seeni said aama satish,raji poiyiduchhu.I asked him eppadi da,eppadi poga mudiyum. seeni told me that nearly a week ago raji had complained about chest pains and trouble with his breathing and they rushed him to apollo med and stabilised him.Well he had had a heart attack and his sugar levels was a high 580.After stabilising him,some confusion reigned and till date i am not sure what the hell happened and he was discharged on saturday evening and died the next day at about 4.30 am.He must have died peacefully because he had this smile,real peaceful smile on his face and when i went to see him he looked like he was fast asleep or in deep meditation. Deep meditation,yes for raji and me spent some great times in pursuit of the that magical and yet elusive spiritual elevator.Girivalams in thiruvannamalai,paamban swami koil meditation,pattinathaar koil,maruntheeswarar koil and thirukazhugu kundram meditation trips are some of the few memories i have of him and i will keep them safe in my soul until my last breath.Like that famous cold play lyrics those who are dead are not dead,but living in my head ,raji will remain in my memory.We secretly let the world believe that we have gotten over our loved ones deaths but we live with them and their memories untl we become a part of someone elses memory. But the important part is that raji did not take care of his health and hid his diabetes from everyone and had some poor eating habits and he also had a huge tummy.A few years back when i asked him why he was losing hair all of a sudden and looking very run down,he said there were a few problems which were causing him tension and hence he looked a bit off.Rajis death was diagnosed due to myocardial infarction and two pipes of his heart were blocked pretty badly. Well my plea to you all is not to ignore chest pains or shoulder pains for a long time and surely not to pass it of as some muscle pull or some other lazy excuse.Take you average tap at home and one day you will notice the water flow is thinning and yet you will not call the plumber and will wait,manage and endure until the water comes down to a trickle,the plumber comes in and checks and says adaippu irukku ma or he will say washer poidichhu .The same way your heart tells you weeks,months in advance that something is blocking it and still a majority of the people will go on thinking it is some tummy upset,gas or even worse think i am just 45 years old and how the bloody hell can i have a heart attack. well for your kind information anybody can get heart attack and die of a heart attack at any time and it doesnt matter if he smokes or does not smoke,eats more or eats less. See all of us have to go one day and it is called fate,vidhi,thalai eluthu and it all boils down to the reason of our going.Some will die of heart problems,some will die of cancer,some will die of liver or kidney problems but we all die.Tale for instance a hyundai santro,lakhs of these models have been sold and yet each one of them comes to the service center with its own unique set of problems.for example my santro suffered rust problem because i live in besant nagar and close to the beach and my car rusted cos of the salty air.Another santro somewhere might suffer fuel injection,some might suffer suspension problems and so every car has problem in its own way,just like we have problem with out bodies.Maybe we can broadly categorize them as problems relating to heart,lungs,liver and kidney.All of us come into this world with a fresh and brand new body,but buried deep somewhere is the problem that will lead to our deaths.But many hasten this end by aggravating their problems by smoking,drinking,bad life style and cholesterol laden food.So their manufacturing defects rear their heads,waken up and start the count down.It is mother nature at work buried deep in our genes and she works and moves in mysterious ways.Maybe she is perfecting the human version which i doubt will be perfect what with all the pollution and new and aggressive diseases. So i beg all of you,none of you are immortal,none of you are blessed with THE WOLVERINES genes to mend yourself and so dont ignore signs or pains in you body except for that pain in the underworld regions you feel when you see a hot chick cross you or a hot guy pass you.A block in your heart can cause a heart attack and a block in your brain can cause a stroke.Funny i see lot of people daily in the traffic who drive like they have had strokes or some abnormal growth of brain tumor.I seriously think that some of these zombies who ply chennai roads just have tumors in their head and are devoid of brain matter. I want to end this post by saying that everything is possible because of love and if you have loved and have been loved then it does not matter when you die for love is what that makes everything possible.I love all of you and wish the best for you and all your families.Be well.
Posted on: Sun, 23 Mar 2014 23:54:41 +0000