Her reaction was instant. The soldiers hand shot up in light speed to hold onto the girls hand. Dont go, She said quietly. … Lightning walked closer, never letting go of her hand. Dont go, She repeated. Her body began to shake. It was anger, the girl was sure of it. Why… She turned her around, with the hopes of seeing the usual, happy, beautiful green eyes she had always adored, but they were completely covered by her orangey bangs. I dont want you to go. Youre… Vanille snapped her head up. Her eyes were already puffy from all the crying, but the tears just wont stop. It was almost as if here tear ducts were out of control. Her cheeks were near crimson, almost like she was caught with a heavy fever. The girl bit onto her lower lip to contain herself. Lightning couldnt look at this. She pulled her in forcefully to embrace her, but again, Vanille fought wildly – she didnt want to be in this womans arms. Let go… let go…! Vanille cried breathlessly. She couldnt stand this. Confusion and anger do not mix well, the woman decided. She didnt know what else to do – she could only hope that by holding her tighter, Vanille would calm down. Youre all the same! Youre just like them…! Vanille tried to step back, she tried to push the woman away. She kept trying and trying, but she knew very well that it was pointless. Lightning would never let go. I dont want to hurt you. Please, stop moving… But she refused to obey, Disgusting… She pushed harder. Would you just stop…! Vanille ignored her once again, I dont need sympathy from people like you…! The soldier was at her limit, VANILLE! DONT CALL MY NAME! Out of luck, she managed to free herself from the womans strong arms. … Im begging you…! She panted. Lightning was also out of breath. She wanted to run and hold onto her again, but she could only wait for the girls next move, for she did not want to use any unnecessary force again. She took a few steps back, Im begging you… please dont call my name like that… The wound in her chest was stinging – no, hurting like a god damn knife was carving onto her. Vanille could only relieve the pain by pressing her hand on it. Though, the rage in her heart made her clench her fist, and she ended up clawing at the flesh again. … You call my name as if you care, but you… youre… She shut her eyes so firmly she felt as though her eyeballs would bleed, … Youre acting like them! Vanille, Stop it! I said STOP IT! The woman walked forward. She could hear the footsteps approaching even though she wasnt looking. The girl began to step back. Dont come near me, dont come— Her back hit the wall, she had nowhere to run. Lightning wrapped her arms around the girls trembling, delicate form. I am not them, Her voice sounded as soft as the wind in the chimes, … and Im… sorry Im like this, She swallowed, Im sorry it seems like I dont care, but Im trying… Im really trying to… This time, Vanille did not fight back. Perhaps it was because a part of her wanted to listen. I dont want to force you to tell me about your history, but… if I dont learn about it, I dont know how I can help you, She whispered into the redheads ear, Vanille, I… Please stop… Her voice muffled into the soldiers white Guardian Corps vest. Listen to me, … Vanille pulled away. She kept her head down. Still refusing to look the woman in the eye, she pushed her gently away. Lightning attempted to walk in again, but the girl reached out to stop her. What are you… I dont deserve any of this, She interrupted the strawberry-blonde, and finally brought her head up. Her usual, bright, glimmering azure eyes were now clouded with grim confusion – even so, Vanille knew she had to finish what she started. Im a liar, a traitor, a coward, and… and a murderer. Lightning furrowed her brows. Vanille… Doesnt it bother you? How the lost-and-found never called a single time, the way I dressed, the questions I ask you, my ignorance to the simplest things in this town… The soldier listened. Onee-san… dont you understand? Ive been lying to you all along – Im no typical schoolgirl from Eden, and neither am I a Cocoon citizen. I… I dont even bleed the same blood as you… She lost the will to step forward. Vanille covered her ears – she did not want to listen to herself, but she had to go on. Im… my people were the ones who killed the innocent at the Fifth Ark – my people did it… they… Im of their kind— and I… Stop… Lightning breathed quietly. Stop being so nice to me…! Her voice rising, she was on the verge of crying again, Your kindness, your hospitality, your love – everything does not belong to me! Im just a selfish slut who abandoned my friends…! I did it all for my own safety – all because Im incapable and pathetic— … Vanille… — So just kill me! Do whatever you want! Vanille choked. You said that you wouldnt mind killing people who arent from Cocoon, am I right? Well, you were doing it moments before, why dont you continue? Why dont you just kill me…! Her head was spinning – she felt as though she was dehydrated from all the crying. Her blurry vision prevented her from seeing the expression on Lightning, but that was probably for the best. Kill me to avenge your parents…! I said stop! She slammed the girl against the cement wall once again, this time holding her by the shoulders. It was all going to happen again, but she no longer cared. Vanille simply closed her eyes and waited for whatever the woman was going to do. A moment of silence allowed her to regain her breath. Not only her, but Vanilles panting also echoed in the tight alleyway. For some reason though, the noise from the crowd that blended in with their breaths did not seem to reach their ears. Lightning grew tired and weak, her mind clouded with fear and uncertainty. Fear…
Posted on: Fri, 08 Aug 2014 23:35:25 +0000
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