Heres another amazing story from you lovelies. This is my story. I have been struggling with this crippling anxiety/depression all of my life. It got worse when I thought i couldnt conceive. Then I did but I didnt find out until I had a miscarriage. My husband was supposed to be my support but everything he did and said (not through any fault of his own, he has never struggled with this before) just pushed me over the edge. So I started hiding and cutting in places that you cant see. Occasionally he would find them and we would fight and it would get worse and that is how it went for awhile until he just started ignoring it and it became silent. In July I found out I was pregnant again and I was so happy. A few months later I had my first huge anxiety attack accompanied by the ugly voices and words that told me horrible things. I started having the nightmares and it woke me up and I couldnt breath. I started to do what I always did I ran and hid. I started to cope the way I always did but when I pulled out the razor I realized couldnt do it. I couldnt risk the life of my baby. My husband found me shortly after when he got home from work and just held me. Eventually we started talking about it again and he began to support me. I have now been cut free since just before I became pregnant at the end of June 2014. No matter how bad the Anxiety and Depression gets I will not put his life at risk. I am still taking it one day at a time and some days I cannot even get out of bed but he is safe. My only fear now is what will happen after he is born. I am so scared to go into postpartum depression but this little one has saved my life already so i am willing to bet he will be enough to pull me through but I am still going to talk to my doctor just in case. Thank you for letting me share my story. ~ Slit Wrist Savior
Posted on: Mon, 26 Jan 2015 21:43:14 +0000
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