I BEGIN TO ENTER A WONDERFUL WORLD IN WHICH THE PROOF OF THE BEYOND – SOMETHING THAT EXISTS BEYOND US – MAKES ME FEEL WONDERFUL, FILLED WITH LIGHT, A COMPLETE TRUST AND A SENSATION OF MIRACLE EVERY DAY ... I cannot explain how Black Crow truly touched me. He was the invisible part which was always with me, helping me, and that suddenly I had acknowledged, thus turning itself visible. And that touched me in such a way that I myself could not have imagined! I remember having written in my meditation notebook pages and pages about him and about how I felt. I started going for long walks, by myself, imagining him beside me, speaking to him, as a child who plays and speaks to his guardian angel. I don´t have the words today, to describe my state of mind then. Everything became a fairytale. It was like all of a sudden I had real proof that a magical world beyond ours truly existed, making me feel I was not alone. I opened myself completely and with full trust to the beyond, without realizing at all that I could come to suffer any type of consequences. I started to live everything openly, everything that I felt. And I didn´t even have to do anything on purpose to feel because the sensations and feelings would burst spontaneously inside me and I didn´t put any barriers or mistrusts such as: “this is too strange” or “maybe this is starting to affect me out of proportion?” No, nothing. I simply lived it all fully, openly and trusting the magic of the proof from beyond, feeling blessed for this amazing opportunity. (PG. 52) *** ... I began to speak about dreams. I said that I loved dreaming and that in dreams I saw things as clearly as in the meditations. I remembered at that moment one that I had had with Jesus, when I was small and lived in Brazil. I had been eight or nine. This dream had repeated itself night after night, for three or four nights in a row. I dreamt that I was falling into a very deep hole and that Jesus would save me. “In the dream, the Earth was full of holes, really deep holes,” I started to tell. “I walked among the holes, with one foot in front of the other, trying to balance myself very carefully so as not to fall.” Since John wasn´t paying attention, I turned to Laura, “Invariably I would fall. No matter what I did, I´d always fall.” Laura suddenly got up, staring attentively to a picture on the wall, nearing it with the attention of someone who has noticed something incredibly interesting for the first time. I got up after her to continue. “Inside the hole, which was very deep, everything was dark, completely dark. One couldn´t see anything, not even the entrance of the hole. I was afraid, very, very afraid. I´m telling you this now and I´m remembering it exactly as I felt it! The fear was horrible, I was completely alone, and couldn´t see anything.” Laura wasn´t looking at me. I grabbed her arm and turned her to face me. “You are not listening! Hear my dream.” “I´m listening, I´m listening,” she said. “Well, when I had no more hopes of getting out of the hole,” I continued, “suddenly, at the top of the hole Jesus appeared. I´m seeing him as if I had dreamt it last night! He extended his hand, and pulling me, took me out of the hole. I always knew that Jesus saved me at the end of the dream, but the feeling of fear inside the hole was so horrible, that I was afraid of going to sleep and of dreaming it again. I was afraid because I knew that the dream would repeat itself. I dreamt it when I was small.” (pg. 54)
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