I apologize for the delay in this update. To all of those asking me to post, here it is! The results are in!!!! My scan results came back good!!! Not only has the cancer not spread into my other organs, there was also no cancer detected anymore in my breast, chest wall, or clavicle. Although the CT does not show cancerous cells & there was evidence showing cancer still in my lymph nodes, my results are beyond a blessing. To go from being diagnosed with Stage 4 cancer & my Oncologist telling me there wasnt anything to do other than possibly shrink the cancer with treatment, to now hearing that the cancer is gone is a true miracle from God! I still have a future filled with surgeries, appointments, labs, scans, etc...but I am blessed to say that I can now look more forward to a future. It is so very difficult to be optimistic when you are feeling so sick and tired. But, the love, prayers & support from you all has made this so much easier & I thank each of you from the bottom of my heart. I also thank all of my medical staff who have became my family as they have given me the best of care through it all, prayed with me, & cried with me. I was blessed to have an Oncologist who prayed with me & her decisions were led by God. The perfect dosage amount is critical. It was critical in saving my life & killing cancer cells. Now as I call myself a survivor, I am challenged in what I have to fight back from...... There is nothing, absolutely nothing, pretty with chemotherapy & radiation. Every day has been a challenge just to wake up. But you all know how hyper I am so I really couldnt rest no matter how hard I try..lol Fighting & staying strong took my strength away it seems. It brings tears to my eyes but I make myself dismiss the thoughts as just a form of vanity. The treatment has caused the ultimate in pain. I have actually felt the tenderness in every bone of my body. The throbbing pulsates with the rhythm of my heartbeat, and the “chemo brain” that has occurred. I am sure some will say I didnt have much of a brain to begin with anyway...lol The port, that was surgically placed in my chest, gives the necessary access to the large artery in my neck where the chemo flows quickly, and efficiently. I will have to keep it in for at least another 2 years until I can be in a true remission status. When I arrived home after therapy, all I wanted to do was go to bed. But, I kept going & kept fighting. No one really ever knew how hard this battle was, I kept a smile & hid the pain & tiredness as best as I could. I decided to share this most challenging time with you, not for pity, believe me, I have granted myself plenty of hours of self-absorption, and defeatism. Although this is written in detail about my difficult experience with the necessary cancer treatment I chose to keep me alive, I do not want this to be about me. I want this missive to bring the much needed attention to anyone plagued by these dangerous cells. Those who may not have a voice, or chose to stay quiet. I know your pain. I know those terrible nights filled with doubt and questioning. I know how brave you are in this battle and I wish I could wipe your tears. I wish I could hold your hand tightly with the resolve that would let you know you are not alone. The only ability I have is to share my journey. I am dedicating this post to anyone who has been touched or hurt by cancer. The families, the friends, the co-workers, the employers and especially the ones who are currently fighting or who may have fought such a problematic battle. I grieve for those who have lost their fight after knowing the distressing effects of chemotherapy & radiation. I write this in honor of those who are currently battling this insidious disease and for those who waged this war, but lost. My love & prayers to you all.......... From Nica Martin. ..Praise God! Praise God
Posted on: Tue, 15 Jul 2014 16:24:51 +0000
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