I have to do this. I have to say whats on my mind and I need to be a little cryptic but I have tried everything else. It goes in part to something about me and some things I have recently learned. My friend Donna Riddle recently posted something about this that really hit home. My whole life, as freespirited, artistic etc. that I am I have also always been a fixer, a peacemaker, and always willing to take blame or bear the brunt to make things be o.k. If theres a problem then of course it must be my fault. There has been a situation developing that has caused me a great deal of stress and its been building for awhile and until recently I was able to offset it with other things. Today however I was accused of being ornery and raining on someones parade and my first instinct was to apologize and then I thought it through and realized I am not doing that anymore. Everyone must be accountable and bear responsibility and at the very least be civil and considerate. I am NOT ornery. I am old, in poorish health, exhausted and alone. I am being treated for panic attacks which I never had until this past year. I have sucked it up for a long time and every day I work my ass off to try and maintain and keep going. Perhaps if you asked me if I needed help or just a simple hope all is well it might go a long way toward a solution but no I do not have to endure what I have in this matter and nor do I need to feel guilty. Perhaps I am not so much ornery as you are inconsiderate. There / empowerment is good. :)
Posted on: Wed, 09 Apr 2014 02:37:55 +0000
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