I have to say something about this situation with Angel and my brother Kurt. Something that I think is true, but that he and many of you may not be able to understand. But it needs to be said. As much as I want to see the complete truth come out, I also want to see my brother, and all of you who have been wounded in similar situations, be able to release your hearts from the kind of resentment this stuff surely brings. Hatred is the destroyer that created this situation on the first place, and I am not wanting my heart to duplicate it. I want my heart to be free, Kurts heart to eventually be freed.. and yours, from the damage this, and other people and situations in life has caused you. Forgiveness does not mean you forget and stop fighting for the right thing. It means you release your own heart from being a prisoner to resentment. Sometimes anger is what is needed to apply change that is beneficial to a situation. Its what causes us to move in needed pathways to create a system of being that is better. But during this process, I must always hope that the most important change would happen .. and that would be the change in my own heart to forgiveness, ... so my heart is freed to love again, unhindered. I also hope for the seemingly impossible, that the police officers involved in this, and the entire police organization who is inadvertently a part of it, would also come to see that their actions were deeply harmful. I wish for them to see Kurt as a human, and see this pain caused him was unecessary. That they would take that step outside their uniform, outside the need to cover up what happened to be accountable. Its my prayer that as much as I will hope for their hearts to also change and learn from this, that my own heart not be broken and bent towards hatred as a response to the hatred I have witnessed. I need to check my own heart, and make sure my desire is justice and not revenge. This is the example I want to set before my children and Kurt eventually, though I know right now he will not understand it. It does not mean I will not go through this process with Kurt. It means my heart will not be owned by it. This is the strength I wish to bring to my brother. I already know it wont be easy.
Posted on: Thu, 06 Nov 2014 15:36:25 +0000
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