I seriously feel like Im in a total fog... I just want to pull the covers up over my head and not come back out. But... Thats not an option. If there was ever a time to #fightthegoodfight that time is now! All I know to do is continue putting #onefootinfrontoftheother so my boys and I are about to head into city (pulling that dang trailer - yikes!) so that I can finalize everything, get keys, unpack first load... And, if Im feeling especially motivated maybe even drive to Ohio and pick up a load of things I have stored there?? I dunno... Thats a stretch... But, crazier things have happened... And, continue to. I guess I also need to address my post on Thursday night... As yall may have noticed its down.. NOT because I regret or feel guilty about anything I said (I may say much worse before this is over - I honestly havent even begun to process or do whatever it is I need to do after everything that happened on Thursday! But, many of you became worried and the last thing I want to do is be a worry or burden for anyone else... God knows Ive been enough of that already! Sorry, friends!! I would ask, please, that in the future if I happen to go off in a way yall arent accustomed too ... That you please keep in kind who I am and what Im about in the midst of it. This stuff is BAD, friends! And, to those of you who messaged about how classy Ive been and how well Ive handled myself through all this and how this isnt the way Ill want my boys to remember it all in the end ... I appreciate your compliment... And your helpful, practical, logical advice. But, NOTHING about this is practical or logical!!! And, while I will continue to be who I am... Who I am NOW is REAL... And, REAL is that Im gonna FLIP and need support and prayers as this continues to go down! If you cant do that... I totally get that... I promise I do! But, that being said, please either love me where I am or dont! Im NOT in a good place right now... Does it mean Im not caring for my kids or doing what I need to do or taking care or what needs to be taken care of?? Heck no!!! In some crazy way, it means Im doing it all even more... I can only attribute this to Gods grace and your prayers. Im starting to lose my train of thought, my boys are getting restless, and I have a trailer to pick up and attempt to pull through Pittsburgh - oh Lord!!! I love yall more than words can say! Thanks for being here!
Posted on: Sat, 22 Nov 2014 18:17:33 +0000
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