I sit tonight and reflect on this past weekend and cant help but think about what lies ahead tomorrow. I have always been strong when it comes to others pain and suffering, but there have been times these past few days when I have literally felt like I was falling apart, losing my mind, and quite frankly, wished that I could crawl in a hole and forget the world was even spinning. The unknown is the hardest part, and even though I have faith that the problem will be minor and easily fixed, it does not stop the enemy from wreaking havoc on my mind. It becomes a constant struggle to keep my thoughts under subjection...to stand firm on lessons that I was taught as a child: that God is not the author of fear and confusion. Its so easy to tell someone to recognize the enemys tactics (and I have said that many times before to many people), but when you are in the middle of it, its not so easy. I was so blinded by worry and fear, and it was so overwhelming at times that it literally took my breath. I remember yesterday when I had Tiffany and Tali come over to pray with me, b/c I really thought I was losing it. The devil had taken the worst case scenario and played it over and over in my mind, and even though I wish I could say that I have put it out of my mind, never to be thought of again, the real truth is that, even though I have much more control over it, it does rear its ugly head. I have had such an awesome support system through all of this, my family, my friends, my church and extended church family, my JPJH family and so many more who have offered words of encouragement and who have tirelessly prayed, not just for Sara Beths healing, but for my peace of mind. The reality is that satan knows where he can hit us the hardest, and sometimes God allows our faith to be tried so that we can have a greater testimony. The fire can be so hot sometimes that it would be easy just to throw in the towel, but when we learn to recognize that there is always a FOURTH man in the fire with us, and that we will come through victorious, it makes it worth while. I believe God showed Himself to the three Hebrew children in the most difficult part of the process...not when they were about to be thrown in, but right in the hottest part of the furnace. Why? Because He had to try their faith. So I believe that tomorrow may be the hottest part of the fire, but I also believe that He will show up and He will do so right on time. With that said, I am claiming complete healing for Sara Beth and complete victory in my mind. As one of my besties Tiff said, Either we believe God is God or we dont. So tonight I choose to believe. Tonight I plant my feet firmly on the Word of God, and though my mind may wonder and worry may try to creep in, I refuse to give the enemy reign over my mind and my emotions. We gave Sara Beth back to God over 9 years ago. She is His. I am His. Nothing can change that fact. There is a blood line, and fortunately, he cant cross it. So maybe you are facing what seems like an impossible situation tonight. Dont let the devil rob you of your peace and your joy. Trust Him. Let Him be God in your life! Please continue to pray as she goes for blood work and other tests tomorrow. We are believing for an awesome report!
Posted on: Mon, 15 Sep 2014 01:03:43 +0000
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