I think..ugh. I think people are pretty confused about what the hell i am talking about when i say i am having neurological issues. When i say my neighborhood sees me act weird but are used to me. when i know i am not right but am just going with it. ohhhh pop. I am just going to say some things that are happening, because i keep forgetting that you just read my words and cant SEE me like the romper room lady. and i am afraid because i know the neighborhood people are having adjustment issues and slow down when they see me, but then after awhile, now they smile and wave, or greet me on the street and introduce themselves and make me feel happy. OR honest? they give me weird looks, and hurry away. That means they think i am really really weird and dont want to know me. Which hurts for a bit, but that means i think they are really really mean, and i dont want to know them. So i am going to tell you just blurbs of things. so you know. and i can feel more relaxed. and i dont know why yet. but i think i know parts. well i do. because some are all my life things, that i think just have reached a head now that i am older, my body cant compensate much more, ( instability wise of my body), the lesions have been there a long time like dr said),, oh Heather be quiet and just say. The dr is telling you why later. So here it is folks. : in no particular order: My body does things... My left side mostly.. my arm shoots up in the air.. and hand and fingers dance around randomly, sways.. does a jig.. and i spin, and sway.. and its kind of funny, but not really.. yes it is.. NOT its not..! what the hell??? and my legs make me bounce... like a palsy of sorts. Not always , sometimes. But its mostly if i am moving. But if i am walking a long,, and it happens.. and i grab a tree.. it stops lol. if i walk backwards and spin.. i get back on track. Sometimes.. I get stabbing pains in my left eye.... it makes me feel so sick.i get visual disturbances.,. i see white swarms of gnats... or heat lightening.. i cant wathc tv or read like i used too,,, too much fine detail.. I like big picture type viewing....nature.........
Posted on: Wed, 23 Jul 2014 09:08:50 +0000
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