I wake from sleep, fog clouding my eyes and head A waking weight turning my limbs to lead I look at the screen: One call missed, Number Unknown, message received Curiously I listen and fear sets in no time: This the police, theres been a crime, please call ...... and that is all. Shaking with fear I call for you and the silence is telling Hoping to hear you I wait for your voices Theyre sleeping now, there is work in the morning Please... let that be all. I feel like Im floating, adrift and lost Straining to hold your hand The quiet never ends, and always I end anxiously All I want is news, some answers to my questions. Yet every time the only sound in my head, a word, Why? Desperate I knock on your door, just wanting to know That the ones I love still live. The help of strangers lights some of my journey And what information they give. The words said plain repeat in my brain yet I dont understand a thing. This knowledge isnt power, it cuts me deeper than before. Finally a voice, but the words.. so cold... For mistakes of my past, foolish anger in my youth You wont believe, it was not me The mother who held me.. the words and ways that you taught me Wont now listen to a thing I have to say. Youve done it before I thought you would see, that past isnt me. Ive fought with my faults, to gain your pride.. yet I have your scorn. I scream and I yell, It wasnt me! And only see your back. My sister I know I have wronged.. and for years have lived with that guilt. Young and angry we both were, but fear was the relationship I built. As I grew older I wanted to change to see her smile more. I held in my anger and fought my own demons, you counted score. Time finally served balm, or it seemed to me, and we were sisters true. Standing alone I greet the times with tears. The people I love, cant see the truth.. those deeds arent mine. My family is gone, theyll never be back, my hearts become so shy. Ill scream of the limits of my voice, This crime isnt mine! The only light to keep me warm, is a candle of truth and one small hope. Always I only want you to know joy and love, be well A vain wish, the wish of one who knows One day youll wake and I hope Im there Ill do what I can to not give in and not vanish To this void, this choking silence and your blind spell.
Posted on: Sat, 02 Nov 2013 13:26:11 +0000
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