Insert 83 ... Me:khambe uyovasa Zintle, awuzothetha nam unuka enye inkazana apha!.. Wawakhupha amehlo uZee and was lost for words. She got up and went to switch off the car and went inside the house.. The kids continued to play and I watched them but my mind wasnt with them. Am I really allowing zintle back after yonke okuhula kwakhe?worse nangoku ubuya enuka inkazana.., at the end of the day she is my wife and I made a promise to be with her in holy matrimony in good and bad times. I made a promise to myself, God and her and Im grown up now and Im a woman of my word.. Noba kunzima kanjani ndandithe ndizohlala emtshatweni wam. Akuthethwa ba mandinyamezele ublongo ke, its time we sat down and spoke in a civil manner noZintle.. I love her and that will never change. I said a little pray to ask God to forgive me for I have sinned and to please bless my family and my marriage.. I said amen and continued to daydream.... in that moment I started feeling the guilt of what happened, why is it that everything that is forbidden and wrong tends to have yet again the best feeling ever. I hated myself for I did with Kuhle, I didnt want to be that woman who takes an eye for an eye when things go wrong emtshatweni. My mind was consumed with the guilty conscious that filled my mind... At that moment liso pat me and snapped me back to reality Liso:Mama masingene kubesebsuku ngoku.. Zee had already taken the twins inside. I got up, took the blanket and went inside. The house smelt warm, there was love Zee cooked... Talk about cleaning your act, ndisahamba njalo I got a text from Ayanda abazali are getting hitched next weekend, not fancy just lunch with the family and dads business partners. Love you lil sis I just smiled and thanked God, Im sure the divorce with umaka Ayanda went through...I went to sit elounge noLiso and Zee brought us out plates. Liso behleli phantsi esitya, Mac and cheese... How I missed my wifes cooking. We all ate in silence, the twins were sleeping, zee had already bathed, fed them and put them to sleep while Liso and I were outside. We finished eating and I took the plates and went to wash the dishes while Zee bathed Liso... 20 mins we were all done and Liso was already sleepy so I went to put him to bed and have a little bonding session naye. Oko eloqa uboy wade walala.. Somewhere in the conversation I heard him saying he wants to have dreads noMazine njengo mamakhe ncaaaa my baby nje... I went to go sit and watch tv, Zee was sitting on the other side.. Zee:singathetha?.. Me:Im not holding your tongue Zintle, yakwazi uhula you dont need me permission for that. Theni uzocela kum uthetha nje?.. Zee: Im tired of apologising Phumeza. It was never my intention to be constantly saying to you. Ever since we got married Ive changed and I hate the person Ive become.. I blame myself for that, I couldnt handle being the only breadwinner apha endlini even though thats all I wanted to do for you, provide for you and out kids... Yes Ive I had a mistress and she was only there to ease my stress. I drank a lot Phumeza.. Clearly handling things on my own became too much for me, maybe I wasnt ready for marriage psychologically but I dont want to loose you. I still want you... Well need you as my wife. I need you Phumeza because I love you so much I cannot explain it. I dont how I could I ever forget to be your wife, you partner, you soulmate.. When you beat me up and through me out I realised that I had forgotten how much you mean to me. I had forgotten your beautiful smile and the love that you give me... You will always come first to me even though I havent showed you that over the past couple of months. Im apologising here I just want us to work through our marriage without any distractions... I dont blame you for going and looking for what I couldnt give you somewhere else, I blame myself for that, I cant stand the fact that there is someone out there who can make you happy. I took that for granted and when I saw you in hospital with that butch... She knocked me back to my senses.. You are my wife, we made a promise to each other and God that we will stay together till death do us part..... Me:Well Zintle you have a funny way for showing your lack of interest in me... For the fact that you can cheat clearly says it all, yintoni le ndingenayo mna inkwenza uyoykhangela phandle??.. Zee just cried without answering me... Me:Well ke Mrs Vumazonke Im tired of talking and complaining, Im emotionally drained. Me beating the living shit out of you was my last straw. The ball is in your court. Im going to continue with my life with my children.. If you really want to be part of this family again. You going to have your ass off to prove to your kids that you not a absent mother, I dont think the twins can recognise you anymore. Liso doesnt care about you anymore. The boy prays for you more that he prays for himself.. Uzintloni Zintle..... I could see the heartbreak in her eyes. I got up and went to bed... A few minutes later I heard her getting inside the blankets too, as she tired to kiss me to turn me on.. Me:Zintle thats not my weak spot, maybe ngeyalemistress yakho not eyam. Cela undiyeke tuu sowmoshile I went to sleep!!
Posted on: Wed, 24 Sep 2014 18:48:49 +0000