Kind of disappointment in myself :( for the 3rd, 4th or idk 5th time I tried to be fit and healthy. In trying so hard but just cant. For 4 years straight back in 06-10 I worked out almost every single day. The gym was my life. Even when I worked. I ate whatever then came to the gym and worked out I got down to a size 4. I was always a size 7 after I had my kids a stayed a 10. Then after nico I went through depression and Genaro helped me get back on track by letting me join the gym. I dropped to a size 4. I was so happy at that time with myself. Now for the past 2 years I just cant do it anymore. Ive tried and tried and tried but I cant. And I really do hate when people say oh its easy do this do that do this or that.,.. Or whatever. In my case its not. I wish people understood my life and how everyone depends on me I have so much going on. I cant attend many parties, I cant eat right, i cant cook, I cant workout, I can rest..... I cant do any of those and yes I know its part of life I get it and I know it. I just wish some things could change I want my family healthy and fit. We dont eat right here, we are always tired and sluggish but its our life now. There is no motivation or push. I wish I could have someone to help me and my family out. Cooking for us and working out schedules out and saying ok I got it figured out these days you workout. Or Ill cook for yall everyday. But who am I kidding that will never happen cause its up to us. I do miss our old life style and never being tired, going out, working out, cooking. But thats something Ill never get back, I see people working out and eating right and I miss it. I get emotional because that was a big part of my life at one time. My husbands too. And now we have gained so much weight, no energy and just not us anymore, I see everyone working out and Im like yup, cause yall got a 8/5 job no after school activities no second job thats why yall can do it. I cant :( and I hate seeing everyones post about working out and eating right because as much as I want it I cant do it. Its IMPOSSIBLE!!!!!!!!!!! Those that know my life style understand what Im talking about, oh well thats life again. But the only thing I can take away from this is that although we are gaining weight and tired! We arent struggling we work 2 jobs and provide for ours kids and make sure they have everything they need and want. I just wish I could workout and be more healthy me and my whole family.
Posted on: Thu, 09 Oct 2014 03:30:01 +0000
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