My grandma visited me in my dream the other night....I have been through a lot in the past and it really messed with my mental but that battle took me so long to over come. I never expected anyone to understand because they cant, and most of the time people will judge you because they are so close minded to other people feeling things differently .. I only speak words of positivity onto myself and blessings have been bestowed upon me in little and big ways..my mom also visits me often, I know I needed her when I was younger but Im glad to have her watch over me now and be there for me in ways no human can possibly be..She never left my heart. I have learn to let go of things that no longer do anything for me but cause pain. My dad is the worlds biggest douche bag, I will probably never have a relationship with him again but Im at peace with that because he has done nothing but steal, allow money to become the center of his world, and fake wanting a relationship with his kids because of their bank accounts. At one point my dad was my favorite person in the world but not anymore. No one knows the things he has done besides his children and mother of his children, and some others. It has just shown me I dont need him, because I would of rather him not be there than to fake wanting to be there. I always wonder what life would be like if my mom was here but I try to control that because it will stop me from advancing myself. I will never forget what me and my siblings had to go through because of our fathers poor decions, and to clear this up, since hes still fooling a lot of you, he tells you he loves his kids so much, but his youngest son now has no father, his AUTISTIC son is in an institution since 2011 and he hasnt seen him ONCE . Doesnt even call to see how he is. Matter of fact, when he was supposed to bring him his clothes because he didnt have any he couldnt even do that. He sickens me.But now I am happy and Im doing what I have to do for ME because if I dont no one else is and I have one life to live and Im going to make it the best one regardless of whats happened.. Being sucked into misery just helps u form habits of those that made you that way!!
Posted on: Mon, 24 Mar 2014 17:02:49 +0000
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