OMG!!!!!! They almost got to me!! Ive been feeling weak physically emotionally and Spiritually. So during this Low They got to me. All those that dont see me as able to accomplish my Dreams. Not all of THEM are the same. Yes, some are Haters hoping I dont succeed for what ever personal reason. Some just dont know any better, and based on their own ignorance are doubting Thomases and Thomasinas based on Lack of Knowledge of the circumstances. There are those with preconceived perception of what is, what isnt, what it has been in the past, what it is now, and without acknowledging the possibility of change, what they think it will continue to be in the future. Then there are those that Love me and care about me that just dont want to see me disappointed, taking a loss, and hurt or broken by the experience. Those that know my past Herstory and know my track record and dont have Faith that I now have the tools I need and the ability to overcome my flaws, personality traits, and shortcomings that held me back in the past. Those that think I am too fragile to cope with the hardship, pain and heartache I may have to endure. My daughter once told me Ok, so when youre laid out in the floor exhausted, busted, broke, rejected and dejected, then were the ones thats gonna have to pick you up and be on suicide watch I told her Then should that happen have your ass ready to pick me up and call the Prevention Hot Line, cause Im moving on with my Quest. THEY almost got to me. I started doubting myself and my ability to overcome adversity, doubting my capability to rise above my own inhibitions and issues. I shifted gears to Neutral...not going anywhere, standing in place, looking around and falling back into my old thought pattern of Who am I anyway? A Nobody. Looking in the mirror thinking For Real? But then I realized I cant Stay here!!! There is nothing and nobody here...not even me. I dont and wont exist in my currant circumstance. I am not happy here. What do I have to Lose by pursuing my goals and Dreams....Contrary to popular belief I wont lose myself....I am Finding myself. So I will continue to put in the work...I revisited my reason for starting this quest...the progress I have made as well as setbacks...readjusted my game plan and Recommitted myself to the things I need to do to be successful and I am pressing on the upward way...new heights I am gaining each and everyday. Gods got my back, as a matter of fact he is convicting me right now for doubting him...because he told me long time ago this was for me and victory was already mine I just have to keep the faith and stay the course. There is a work that is being done that is bigger than me. There are others that will benefit and profit from my success....so my Purpose in Life holds true...It is not about me, but what I do for others. Keeping My Eyes on The Prize...Dreaming Big Dreams and Living My Life Out Loud. Thank You Les Brown
Posted on: Sat, 04 Oct 2014 17:59:46 +0000