Physical work to do on the house, time to get rid of all the old memories and paint walls and give my life a new look it’s the only way I can move on and be happy. Right now, I am miserable with a bad cold and missing you so much and upset because my mind is occupied with all this mess. I still have you in my heart but I heard you have a new male friend in the clerk office, yes; my love I heard it’s funny how you can talk with him on one to one bases, He gets to see your face and enjoy your laughter and company and all I get are poems. You once showed me you cared for me with your real little doing and showing yourself, now not so much since you have a new male friend and here you have another friend who truly loves you for many many moons and I don’t even get a call from you to see how I have been doing for the last six month You are no dunce, you know I am alone now and belong to no one as same for you and this does concern me much. My feeling for you hasn’t died in my heart not yet but doubt is playing a big roll in my heart too many questions, I feel like this; if you were real you would have made yourself known, made a real move showing your true interest in me beside poems. All I ever wanted from you was to meet the woman who meant everything to me from the start who has taken my hand and we both lead to the stirs with trust and love at play, I really thought since the time is right for the both of us now we might-of had another chance to know each other again at least as friends to see if we’re still a match, if the same fire was burning inside of your heart for me as mine is for you but I guess this I will never now until you make your move and show, show but not in the form of poems, you well know what I mean and expect you to do, no need to be shy or scared I don’t bite or will not knock off your head I am not that kind of person, you of all people should now this by now of me since you been watching all I do. Babe, I have called you many times in the past even six month ago and left you messages with something giving you hints and a opportunity that I was still interested in you but further way you will go from my side so I stop sending you poems because your love for me are just for poems NOT the Real ME so I have stopped trying to reach you in person or poems. Let me leave you with these few words, my love for you has always been honest and truthful same with my poems but our games been going on for some years now and I am hanging on my last string of hope for you, don’t get me wrong I will always love you deeply and I’ll never forget you but I can let you go and move on with my new life. These games you’ve been playing for years is like chess-board and I fold I have no more moves it’s all up to you now, if I see no real show of you the string I am hanging on will be cut loose but I’ll never forget you. This is not a goodbye because in the future to come we might run into each other with different partners in our arms and greet with a hello and a smile…I wish you all the best to come and if you find another partner I hope she loves you as much as I have loved you all this years and her love is true from heart and not just greediness and brakes you heart as the last one. I got to get offline not feeling well but I wish you all the best either way. Always thinking of you~~ your MIA~~...Hugs
Posted on: Sat, 24 Aug 2013 09:41:49 +0000