SMOKING CIGS: (A Blog like FB Post) June 7th, 2014, the day I quit smoking AGAIN and for good! GOD HELP ME with this Sid and Nancy(ish) relationship. I began smoking at age 14. I began smoking seriously (pack a day) at age 17. I have quit 5 times. Each time has been for a significant length and was cold turkey. I quit for 3 years the moment I got pregnant with Darth in 93 and did not smoke again until Spirits memorial service in 1996. I quit again in 98 when I discovered my thyroid problem, began working out and doing stupid unhealthy diets for 9 months and started back at a party with one drag that lead to me buying my own pack within a week. I quit again in 2000, this time for FOUR YEARS and began smoking AGAIN during the 1st Fringe I fully produced. I quit again in 2010 when I was in the hospital for so long after my major car crash that I had no choice but to quit. Was off the cigs for 5 months. Picked it right back up during The Festival that year. I most recently quit in 2012 and was 5 days shy from my 1 year anniversary when I let myself smoke again because of this poker dealer that I damn near let ruin my life. So, here I am. After falling off the wagon all those times, going for it AGAIN. I know that cigs are my absolute worst addiction and I hope this time it can last forever. Somethings we truly are addicted to, others we borderline and others are just moderate indulgences- but my addictions are cigs and soda and well- I just cant EVER have one drag or sip or I will be right back here again. Quitting is easy for me, its the not making some stupid impulse decision thats hard. Sorry for ALL these long posts. I dont know if I do them for clarity, ego, support, accountability, inspiration for others or some combo of all the above.
Posted on: Sun, 08 Jun 2014 03:20:47 +0000