Short Story: Unravelling the Beauty of the Qur’an editor August 7, 2012 0 Views: 669 “Umm….. eeehh” I paused as I tried remembering what I just memorized a few minutes ago. I tried so hard, but it was all gone. “I forgot” I sighed. My teacher smiled at me as she patted on my shoulder gently. Shame pierced through me as I realized thatmy teacher was giving me a second chance. Idid not deserve her patience, for I knew I was the reason for my bad recitation. It has been my mom’s dream that I memorize the whole Quran since I was young. She has always encouraged me about the matter, asking me in shyness to give her the honor of wearing a tiara on her judgement day. Whenever I remember all that my mother had done and was still doingfor me, I would feel severe guilt. At the very least, I had to put that tiara on her and makeher happy and proud. As desperate as I was, I stared at my teacherwith teary puppy eyes; I wanted her to help me so bad. “What should I do? I am so forgetful. Everything that enters in here,” I pointed at my right then my left ear, “gets out from right here.” “What you think is it that you do that would prevent you from memorizing?” she asked bluntly, “Any sins?” I moved my gaze off her face and looked at the ceiling; it was not the right time for anyone to see how nervous I was. “The solution?” I questioned in a whisper. “Deena, let me tell you something,” I listened attentively,“the Quran is proud; if you leave it, it leaves you.” Ouch. That hurt. I felt a lump in my throat. How many times have I chosen my laptop over my Quran? How many times have I lazied around instead of reading a few surahs from the Quran? At that moment, I realized that I have never created a bond with my Quran; my only reason behind reading the Quran had always been memorizing and recitation. I have never really understood the underlying meanings in the Quran. I was such an illiterate loser. “What am I supposed to do in order to not leave the Quran?” I asked. “You need to do one thing.” She said calmly then raised her eyes to pierce through my eyes, “Tadabbur” “Tadabbur?” I asked, “what does that mean?” “It means reading the Quran in a more analytical and inquiring way.” My teacher explained, “What is written in this Holy bookis meant to change you into a better person. Allah won’t ask you to memorize something and that’s it. Allah has given you this Quran for you to learn and live up to it.” It was my first time truly understanding the real reason behind the Quran. So it meant that all my values, actions and ideologies should match up to those mentioned in the Quran. “When you start understanding thus acting upon what you read in the Quran, you establish a unique relationship with your own perception of the Quran.” My teacher continued, “And that relation alone can make you needless of any other relationships, since you are in a relationship with Allah’s book.” I was shocked. I practically held my mouth open. I lowered my head till I was sure my gaze did not meet that of my teacher’s then exclaimed in whispers, “I had no idea. I should really start thistadabbur.” A few days later, I knew what my teacher was pointing at while I was reading my assigned part of the Quran (that I assigned to myself). I grasped the meaning of tadabbu that she was trying to explain. I was able to see another side of the Quran that I have never gotten to see before, and that side was so marvelous and breathtaking. As I read the verses, which I previously memorized before, they had another taste that I have never felt before when I was memorizing. I could relate each verse to my life, and I found it possible to really enjoy each word I was reading. All thanks to Allah, I was lucky enough to experience the beauty of the Quran. Alhamdulilah. Soumaia Hashad An Egyptian by origin and Palestinian by heart. Soumaia is an Actuarial Science undergraduate who’s known as a bookworm and a blogging maniac. She is also a writer for Muzlimbuzz.sg
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