Sitting here on my bed in the quietness of the night listening out for the sound of a mouse or mice has to be the most loniest I think I have ever felt in my life...I cant believe im such a wimp...havent been able to eat or sleep since sunday night when I first realised these little bastards are in my house... My two girls wimped out completely by staying out of house altogether lol ..im worn out with the fear...its amazing how fear can take over our minds .. This fear has brought up so many emotions in me..sadness..loneliness and anger..ive done nothing but feel sorry for myself the last few days..even shed a few tears..you see sitting in the silience ive had too much time to think and over think.. Thinking how life can be cruel for some of us and others seem to cruise tru life with no bother..which is great dont get me wrong...nothing I love to see more is people who are blissfully happy...and it reminded me of just how much our thinking actually creates what type of life we lead... Im normally very positive and just because of a mouse on sunday..my thinking has gone into one of selfpity..which has affected everything really..my body is worn out ..I created head aches..my eyes are like piss holes in the snow..I feel sick ..tired and only bleedin weak with the hunger...im irritable and angry...all really negative emotions... So really the way for me to snap out of it...is to change my thinking again. .to flick that switch inside my head...its so easy for us to go from doing ok to practically a basket case..we need to look after our aul minds...very delicate things..we have to stay healthy with our minds.. When we change our thinking ..we can change our lifes...its very hard to live a positive life with a negative mind.... We all have to start with ourselves first. .there may be changes we need to make..we may need to learn how to say No.when we need to...stop people pleasing...stop been too hard on ourselves..do what ever it takes to find happiness... So tonight I will forgive myself for allowing myself get so ill over the last few days..I will try get some sleep and instead of sitting here feeling sorry for myself that a mouse could appear and frighten the crap outta me..I will be grateful that I have a roof over my head and im not sleeping on the streets of dublin on a piece of cardboard with rats there for company Rant over now folks you can all sing hallelujah shes finally done now lol ♥♥♥
Posted on: Wed, 24 Sep 2014 23:33:57 +0000
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