Someone recently told me my cup of Jo was bitter ... Ive thought about this since and I want to explain some history to the readers, old and new... I do agree its bitter, indeed. Its what some might identify as warehouse coffee or that stuff thatll put hair on your chest. Absolutely! Thats what a cup of Jo is ... Its been long time brewing and this newest blend is quite different then ever before! A cup of Jo started at LMC in 2008: it was full of newly found spirituality, ideas, and so much curiosity. It went strong for some time. I had strange advice about finding oneself and I encouraged people to build communities. It was a biweekly publication for the college newspaper. Never published online. A cup of Jo changed in 2011: after already transferring to WOU, a year prior and publishing a few new things in the college journal, I realized I didnt want to do it anymore. So, I stopped writing for the cup of Jo purpose and focused on leadership, actually building a community since I preached about it for so long, and I even started writing different material for different purposes (see blog). By this time my newly found spirituality was common practice and a way of life. That changed in 2013 during my detox. My spirituality has changed because things change and relationships change. I found new ideas and new ways of doing things that worked better for me. Then I went to Haiti in 2013 right after my detox. That transcended my new thoughts on spirituality and the way I did, do, and will live my life to an entirely different level. One I do not understand. One that does not make sense to me. One that, I believe, is so powerful its going to guide me to a life so beyond anything I imagined. Im terrified! But the fear wont stop me ... This is where the #CupOfJoBruno comes in. That started January 2014 after I processed my trip, admitted my love, and it continued throughout the time I made a lot of poor choices ... Yes, its bitter right now ... It needs to be so I can get through this trip ... This is now the newest brew. Its still in the beginning stages. I am questioning my entire spiritual journey because I am trying to figure out if those things from nearly 10 years ago still hold true to me or if theyre just routine. Ive realized a lot by questioning that ... Its funny how so many people assume that when I address you in my posts, Im addressing one or many particular people. Think about it if the you was really just me talking to myself sometimes. The lies could be mine sometimes. The disconnections could be my own. I question those things. I think, subconsciously, my rants are for my own purpose as a reminder of where I was when I battled the hardest transition of this lifetime. Honestly, I share very little with you, the reader. The wolves are back, stronger then ever before. The magic never left, as a matter of fact. The five points are now three rounds. The blends of color in my reality cannot be found in a crayon box. The focus of my eye can only be exposed through the lens. My reality is confusing right now ... Someone once told me that my cup of Jo was bitter. That same someone mentioned a piece of sweet chocolate, too. And I have no doubt that chocolate is going to overpower the bitterness as soon as I figure out where the candy shop is so I can have constant access to the sweet chocolate that balanced my cup of Jo. Im workin on it, okay? Ill figure this out and the bitterness will go away (for awhile, at least). The love I have for yall is beyond anything I can express right now. Many bright beautiful blessings to you and yours. May you be kissed by the sun, be visited by earths creatures, and hear the joys of life. A childs laughter is sometimes all you need ... I send extra love and admiration to the mommies out there
Posted on: Tue, 24 Jun 2014 18:03:44 +0000