Stella Grace update: Well, as I type this, Im sitting here holding a most beautiful Stella Grace as she receives yet another platelet transfusion. When we called at 5 this morning to get her most recent lab results and they told us 28, I wanted to melt again, BUT it is 2 points up from the 26 we were at last night. It IS progress. It may be little, but it IS a step in the right direction. Yesterday, I had meltdowns. I cried, cried, cried some more. I leaned on my husband. I called my mom. I cried more and at one point thought I was truly having a nervous breakdown. I begged and pleaded with God and prayed without ceasing that today would be a better day, he would lay his hands on her and heal her, and that today her counts would be higher. God didnt fail us...even though they are not what I was hoping for, they ARE 2 points higher. Today, I have to rest in Him. I have to rest in His Peace. I just have to rest period. I know Stella needs a strong mommy and daddy. Her daddy is most times stronger than I am, as I am the one who worries about everything. Steven tells me I have to take better care of myself and before long all this not sleeping is going to catch up with me. I dont admit this often, but I know hes right. Im thankful my mom is here today, as she, along with Stellas nurse practitioner, are basically going to force Steven and I to leave early tonight, go get something to eat, and get back to our room to get to bed at a decent hour. Ive been laying down at night between 1 & 2 and setting alarm for 5 to call and get reports. I cant help but to feel guilty for being away from our girl any longer than I possibly have to be. Im going to listen today though since her nana will be here with her all night, and use that time to get a good nights sleep. Stella needs a strong, well rested mommy!! Lord, we give it all to You! We are going to sit back and watch You work on our little girl! God Bless each and every one of you!! We have our next blood draw at 4 oclock....and results take anywhere from 1-2 hours. Praying for better numbers! #StellaStrong
Posted on: Thu, 13 Nov 2014 15:38:09 +0000
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