TO MY FAMILY: PLEASE ACCEPT MY APOLOGY. I want to say to my dear family, to my sisters, my brothers, uncle, aunt, cousins, nephews, nieces and in-laws; with the sudden death of our dear love one, our mother, (Mrs. Jimmie Lue Potts), your grandmother, your great-grandmother, your aunt and sister…. The passing of our mother has really taken it’s toll, a big shock. A few days ago, I vented out on Face Book on emotions, in a lot of pain (without putting any thoughts to who I may offend), while still in mourning from the loss of our dear mother. I now realize that what I said was offensive, insensitive, distasteful and a terrible mistake. But, she was my mother and there is nothing wrong with taking up for your mama and I do not regret that, nevertheless, God is not the author of confusion. We must love one another and treat each other with kindness. The other day, when I mentioned in my post and stated, “Though I reached out to help you, my siblings became a stumbling block in my way.” What I mean by that statement is…… I had been in contact with the CANCER TREATMENT CENTER OF AMERICA , seeking other alternatives to help prolong our mother’s life, and they told me that there was hope for the type of Plasma cell cancer that I mother had, we were in the middle of transferring her medical records to them, I became vexed and infuriated that some of you gave up on mama too quick and now, I also realize, that because of the lack of communication, some of you was not aware and didn’t know about the CANCER TREATMENT OF AMERICA correspondences. I pray that you all please try and understand where I’m coming from….everything happened so fast, It was only on September 23, 2013 when we all just recently found out that our mother was diagnosed with Plasma Cell Cancer, next thing you know, Nov. 6, 2013, she’s gone. I’m still numb. One day you see your mama active, cleaning, she attended her church faithfully where she was the Mother of her church, next thing you know, she’s gone. Please stop and think, we are not the only ones who are hurting, the church lost their Church Mother as well and I am sure her members are in mourning as well. For she was “Mama Potts” and was loved by many, even by those who grew up calling her grandma and were not any kin, but to her they were kin. Our Mother was a good Christian woman, the best mother in the whole wide world, a good wife to our father and she loved serving God. So if you would? Think for a minute and try and put yourselves in my shoes, no, I’m not perfect, I just felt that before giving up on our mother’s condition in a 45-day time-frame, and she left real quick, is surreal to me. Many old people live with cancer. I felt since her doctor have given her pain medication to help relieve her pain, perhaps she could have lived with taking her pain medication, other cancer patients does this all the time, what was so wrong with that? Again, God’s timing don’t work on my time, it is what God wants. I hope I am able to help someone else, who may be in denial and who have lost a loved one closed to them. On Oct 07, 2013, I drove mama to one of her follow-up doctor visits and that day on our way back home, she shared some things with me in confidence that she was very displeased with, so this is what really set it all off inside of me. I’m not the type to carry bitterness, nor grudges, I can’t live like that, that’s not me. I’m a lot like my mama, humble, kind, loving, I believe in loving everyone, even those who may not like me, I love you too, for there is a God and he created heaven and hell, and I’m not about to lose my soul off of trivial nonsense. Our mama loved us all, dearly and she told me that she want us to get along and for us to come together and to love one another and that is what we all must do, no matter what. You know, the bible says, that the tongue can be a deadly weapon, when we speak negative things out of our mouths, so shall it be. I am not blaming anyone, but God knows best, and He does not make any mistakes. I had the Faith for our Mama and believed that God would give her a miracle, but I’ve come to the conclusion, that; it’s not what I want, it’s what’s the Good Lord want, and he called our mother home and I am at peace, knowing that she’s in heaven and that she doesn’t have to suffer in no more pain. Again, to my family, I ask for your forgiveness and I am sorry that I offended you and want you all to know that I love you from the bottom of my heart. I thank my husband for his guidance and spiritual encouragement; I love you and our two sons, thank you for your support. Matthew 6:14-16 reads… For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you: But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.
Posted on: Thu, 21 Nov 2013 09:47:57 +0000
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