The real legacy of having dead parents is that you are compelled to tell people you care about that you love them. This makes some people uncomfortable because they think you expect something in return or they feel squeamish if they are not in the same space. I have always been one who knows my people immediately. When I feel that sense of recognition and connection, it is hard to keep from grinning like an idiot and hugging them senseless. I love quickly and deeply and it sticks. I am good at love. I am not good at expressing that love without looking like an overly eager puppy. I try to be cool, to say things like, Hey, good to see you! and It was good chatting with you! but what I want to do is cuddle them right up and say, Thank the Goddess you are finally here! It was a long-ass life without you! My parents and grandparents all died without me taking the chance to tell them how important they were to me and how much I love them. That was my mistake and I am trying hard to balance my drive to let people know how much they mean to me with the societal need to not be creepy and weird. I feel a blog post coming on.
Posted on: Thu, 20 Mar 2014 18:15:33 +0000
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