These past few days have been so great. Yeah, theres been a couple moments. But theres been a shit ton of good moments. I met this boy at 5:30 in the morning.. We walked a good bit, then afterwards layed there, watched movies and cuddled until I was comfortable enough to the point where I could sleep. Couple days later, he came back. I mean, thats an accomplishment all in itself.. when someone willingly comes back. Again, a great night, talking, cuddling, movies, he met my cousins, my brother likes him, and its just something thats not very easy to find. Who else would tuck me in at 3 in the morning..? Now, as Ive noticed Ive had my fair share of fall outs. Sometimes its just one thing after another. I just shut off. I dont mean to hurt anyone in the midst. I dont mean to push anyone away when it happens. And I dont mean to be the way I am.. If youre reading this, I cant be fixed at an instant. But I can try. And if youll just stay.. give me a chance to realize the good I have left.. then I can be okay. I cant always be happy. I cant be perfect. But I can give it my all to come off like I am.. Even if it means long sleeves or 20 bracelets.. a big smile and an ounce of hope. Im like the kind of house theyd call a fixer- upper. Youll run into a few problems in the middle of construction.. But you gotta keep working on them if you want the perfect little home. I wanna make your world seem a little bigger.. I dont wanna be a new problem. And Im sorry.. Im so unbelievably sorry and I wish I could be different. But I cant be. I dont wanna lose you while I lose everything else.. right in the middle of me trying to be better. Cause Im trying.. Im trying so unbelievably hard. I hope youll hear me out. I cant keep letting person after person walk out.. especially not you..
Posted on: Fri, 15 Aug 2014 06:02:26 +0000
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