This is not a joke or any sort of April Fools HA HA HA HA prank, this is coming from deeply broken heart but I want everyone to know whats going on with me the last couple weeks. Ive been thinking a lot and I mean ALOT and Im about to make a BIG life changing decision in about 5 months.... Some it may hurt. Some it may prove a point that I can make it on my own. No Im not gonna tell you right now what it is but I will let everyone know soon enough. Dont go to my sisters or mom about this either. Its not their life its MINE!!! Im doing this for myself and I alone! Im not happy here and I dont belong here is all Im gonna say and no Im not going suicidal I promise you. Its a very positive thing. Just cant disclose information right now and dont want too cause I know some of you will try to stop me and Im through being told what to do and treated like all my dreams and goals I want to do are shit!!! If you knew the real me youd actually understand I dont belong here. Life has gifted me and Im taking that gift and letting it out my way!!!! Family can either be with me or against me I could careless right now. All I know its my time to go and start doing things on my own with no one telling me what to do or anything to hold me back cause theres ABSOLUTELY nothing here for me!!! Yes some of you may say family, but Ill see you and there is this nifty thing called Facebook and calling/texting. And no my mom is not telling me what to say this is my heart speaking out for once. Its screaming its time but my mind is telling me no wait here at home Im sorry to say this but this is not my home. Home is where the heart is, my heart is not here. Mom says the heart wants what the heart wants and this decision is want mine wants. So there you have it. Life has thrown me a grand opportunity and whether anyone likes it or not Im taking it. And no one is going to stop me!!!!!!! I do love my family I do! But youve got to see I dont belong here and no Im not disowning anyone. I promise you that! Im grateful for my family! Best family system in the world I think. Couple screws are loose but every family has that. :-p If this hurts anyone I just hope you could forgive me and just understand where Im coming from. Im just not happy and Im going to fix it!! No comments no inbox Im gonna fix me. Even if it does make me seem selfish. Its just about damn time I start thinking and worrying about myself and not everyone else........
Posted on: Wed, 02 Apr 2014 02:13:27 +0000
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