This morning I wanted to share something that God showed me yesterday that is still tearing my heart up today.... Yesterday in second service, as soon as worship started, I heard him.... A special needs young man standing in the back, singing his heart out. His speech was hard to understand, he was off key, about a word behind, and he was loud! His mother warned pastor on Saturday that she was bringing him Sunday and that he sang very loudly. He had shared that with me, so as soon as I herd it I knew exactly who it was. I have a pretty good musical ear. I can pick out multiple harmony parts with in seconds of hearing most songs. My ear picks up the slightest bit of off key singing, and usually it bugs me to the point I have a hard time worshiping..... I am ashamed to admit it, but Ive even recorded someone standing beside me at a conference who thought was singing terribly and laughed about it with my family and friends later... Ugly, I know. Ugh.... But yesterday as we were worshiping, I heard this young man singing all the way from the back, and God allowed me to hear it like he hears it. Absolutely beautiful!!! It was one of the most incredible worship services I have ever been a part of! I was so challenged and moved that all I could do was sob as I tried to sing. I asked for Him to forgive me for being so in love with myself that I would find another persons worship comical. I have prayed often for God to give me his heart. But from now on I will also pray for for his eyes and ears, to see and hear people like he does. There has been a trend in recent American churches to strive for excellence. I agree that we need to do our very best. We need to practice, and play our instruments well. God deserves our very best. I agree that not everyone in meant to be singing on stage with a microphone, But sometimes, somewhere in the middle of all of our efforts to be excellent, we loose sight of what we need to be most excellent at... LOVE. I need to be better at this. I need to be less concerned with the performance, and more concerned with my heart. Thats when my praise is most excellent, thats when it sounds the most beautiful to Him. Thats when it brings the most glory and honor to my Father!
Posted on: Mon, 22 Sep 2014 14:27:45 +0000