...Trust is a confusing thing. It seems so simple but, when you try to pin it down, it can be so elusive. I think of the way that my body sits on a surface thats new to me, unknown, and how my muscles remain tight - anticipating anything. And Im constantly aware of that surface. Over time, with familiarity, I can relax and start to lean back. For many of us, that initial tension exists for so much of the time. We expend so much energy watching and calculating, trying to predict, reading signals in people, ready for anything to change suddenly... Preparing to be disappointed. So much energy spent. We talk about trust as something you build, as if its a structure or thing, but in that building there seems to be something about letting go. What it affords us is a luxury that allows us to stop thinking. To stop worrying about if someone will catch us if we fall, to stop constantly scanning for inconsistencies and to stop wondering how other people act when theyre not in our presence. It allows us to relax a part of our minds so we can focus on whats in front of us....And thats why its such a tragedy when its broken. A betrayal can make you think of all the other betrayals that are waiting for you in things you havent thought of and people you rely on. And you can feel yourself tightening up, bracing... And in the worst cases, you might resolve to trust no one. But... that doesnt really work. Trust is your relationship to the unknown of what you cant control. And you cant control everything. And its not all or none, its a slow and steady practice of learning about the capacity of the world. And its worth it to keep trying. And its not easy.
Posted on: Mon, 10 Mar 2014 17:04:28 +0000
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